Excessive

I didn't write anything yesterday because after I had come home from dinner, I had a giant migraine and couldn't even open my eyes, so it somewhat got in the way of writing anything.

My day off yesterday was pretty good, besides the headache I mentioned, and it was much better than my days off last week. I kept myself busy most of the day, but I was in a decent mood, so my lack of sitting and gaming didn't really bother me. I did two loads of laundry, and also walked to the grocery store. I bought presents for Michelle's birthday, which were the ingredients I needed to make two giant size cookies with happy birthday and a happy face written in icing.

I went out to dinner at Crabby Joe's for Michelle's birthday with Lindsay, Katie, Ally, Kurt, Lindy and a bunch of Michelle's work friends. I had a couple beers while waiting for food, as I figured it would make me feel less nervous, even though I already had a bit of a headache, which was getting worse, I didn't think much of it. I ordered their filet mignon, with mashed potatoes and gravy, which came with asparagus, a peppercorn sauce and I ordered a side of sauteed mushrooms for an extra $2.99. I would say that the beef portion was a bit on the small size... it said 6oz on the menu, but seemed more like 4oz on the plate, and I think they should bump it up to 8oz on the menu and 6oz on the plate. The beef itself was good, and was cooked to rare, as I asked, so it was very good. The mashed potatoes were also great, and the mushrooms were very nice, although a bit pricey. The asparagus was mush, like... very overcooked... it was kind of gross but I ate them anyway. I didn't really touch the peppercorn sauce... it just kinda tasted like BBQ sauce and took over the entire flavour of the meat.

Almost as soon as I got home, my headache exploded and I just laid on the couch and couldn't even lift my head or open my eyes. I fell asleep pretty fast I think, with the Shield on the TV... I eventually woke up, still with the terrible headache, I moved to the bed and think I fell asleep there too. I woke up again and my head was pouding so bad that no matter how I laid down it hurt too much, and when I sat up, it felt a bit better, so I had to get up, I went and sat at the computer and took a sleeping pill and two more tylenols, and stayed up for a couple hours as the pills worked, and I ended up going to sleep tired, and with a very small minor headache, so it kinda worked out, except I had wasted the majority of the night... I had the next day off so I wasn't too upset.

I woke up today and immediately had a plan in my head of what I was going to do, and that kinda felt good. I was hungry, and wanted to watch an episode of the Shield right away, so I decided to make a nice breakfast to eat while I watched. I boiled a couple potatoes and sliced them and deep fried them with onions and peppers, had two poached eggs on rye toast and a coffee. It was very good, very filling and left me feeling satisfied.

I knew that I wanted to play a lot of games, I specifically I wanted to make a little bit of progress in all of the games that I'm currently working on, since it's been a few weeks since I had played a couple of them. I also wanted to do a third load of laundry cause I had brought some work clothes home and left the towels from the day before, and I also wanted to go to the grocery store for some junk food that I couldn't carry home the day before.

So I played through various games, beating a level or two and moving on to the next one. I played some Farcry, Phantom Brave, Super Mario Galaxy, Uncharted 2 (the most of all games today), Ratchet and Clank, Brothers in Arms and Final Fantasy IV (DS), which I finally got passed a part that I had been stuck at (not really stuck, but just... frustrated and didn't feel like trying to get passed it).

At the grocery store, I bought a few things that I wanted to make dinner with. I bought a package of mixed greens and italian dressing, because I felt like a nice light salad, and I bought some cans of tomatoes, so I could make sause for spaghetti. When I got home, I made a medium size salad, with mushrooms, carrots, radishes, red onion and grade tomatoes. It was very good, very summery... and it left room for my main dish, spaghetti made with fresh tomatoes, which was awesome. Ally had given me truffles as a birthday present, so for dessert I had one of her truffles and a coffee, and it was very good... the chocolate just melts in your mouth - very good.

I played some more games after dinner, and eventually ran a bath, listened to the morning stream, and ended up out on the couch, finishing up something in Final Fantasy IV, before putting on Jimmy Fallon and starting to write. Not that exciting of a day really, but pretty much how I like to spend my days off. I didn't really feel down, at least not like last week, and even though I sometimes have bad thoughts, generally speaking I've been content and relaxed, which is all I can ask for right now. It is kind of shocking that it's already time to go back to work tomorrow. It feels too soon to already have to go back to a five day stretch of 10 to 11 hour shifts... it does take a lot out of me, and really reduce my time to do things I enjoy, but I suppose after the first day or two back I don't really dread it as much, and kind of give up. In all honesty, I really don't want to go to work tomorrow, and I feel nervous just thinking about it, but that's nothing new... having a couple days off and then having to go back to work always leaves me feeling like this.

I'm not 100% sure of what's going on at work tomorrow, which doesn't help... I like knowing before I go in, but from what I remember, I believe there are multiple events, including a plated lunch and plated dinner... I just hope I can stay organized and no one throws me off. Go in, do my job, come home, relax, do it again for four more days... that's all I want. I mean, something freaky could happen... I could go in and things could be prepped and we could be a day ahead and everything could go smoothly with everyone in a good mood, but I suppose that's only possible at a professional place where shit's taken seriously.

I can hear thunder, and it's supposed to thunderstorm over night... that's fine, I love listening to storms, but I just hope it's not still raining in the morning because I don't want to spend money on a cab, and I rarely bus in the rain... so... we'll see what happens.

So all I've been up to is... watching the Shield, into season four now... and playing a bunch of games as I try and work my way through them all. Here's hoping tomorrow isn't retarded, goodnight.

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