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October 20, 2004 12:00PM

Butt-Plug

I had a bath early this evening, in an attempt to relax perhaps, I wasn't really sure what I was thinking. I suppose I thought it would bring some kind of unrealstic super relaxation, only dreamt of, but for some reason I believed it... and so I went to the bathroom and had a bath, with Kairi keeping me company. I was relaxed afterwards, but not quite as relaxed as I had hoped, and I'm not sure if the bath can claim responsibility for my relaxed state, as it was more so normal, than super. I guess it didn't do what I had expected, and for some reason, shortly after my bath, I felt stupid for expecting it. I find myself sitting in front of the window; the window wide open and breeze in my face; it's the only sense of relaxation I feel anymore.

It's funny how much I've been missing school lately... just a few days ago Joel came online and said everyone misses playing games with me and stuff, and I just wish I had the money to be there. Other than the bar, it was pretty much my only other form of social interaction. Playing LAN games, speaking with people... in person, communicating, planning and working with others... *sigh* I miss those days. I miss the bus pass, the wireless network that never once worked, not paying attention in class, making fun of the annoying kids everyone hated... I miss a lot of things. I don't think it will ever be like that ever again... I don't think I will ever be like that again.

Emily is going to Toronto to visit friends and family for three days (the weekend), and I know I'm going to be lonely. Of course, I always have the option of getting together and/or hanging out with close friends, don't I? It's funny... when I mentioned to Michelle that I was going to be lonely this coming weekend, lonely and bored, and to no fault of hers, she said, "Yeah, too bad we can't do anything, cause people will talk ya know", and it's funny, because she's completely right. It's just no fair... People and their rumors.. and highschool drama... leave me the hell alone, and more importantly, leave Michelle alone. She's not really known for having lots of hardcore sex, if you know her AT ALL. Basically, the point of this paragraph was to give everyone an advanced 'fuck off' if Michelle and I do end up hanging out. I can do what I want, and youuuu can't stop me *sticks out tongue*

i thought i had starcraft screens
turns out i only havet his
There are few slightly noticeable upgrades to the site today, and a few unnoticeable ones... such as the menu on the left has changed a bit... with a few added items, a recent entry section and some new images.. and the way the 'view' link works, and the 'view comments' link works has also been changed to work more effeciently, as well as the way it was intended, but most will probably not notice a different. There are still some features being worked on as well, which will of course be popping up in the next few days, and then probably disappearing because it's broke, but whatever, you'll probably notice slight changes here and there, and mad props (yes.. mad props) to anyone who notices.

Today was so frighteningly uneventful that it's painful to try and recall it's numbness... really.. I mean it. I basically sat in this chair and did nothing for a very long period of time... the only time I took a break was when I went to eat my heated up macaroni tuna caserol, which only took about twenty minutes to heat and then consume anyway. These days are really driving me insane.. I need to get out, to do something, to accomplish something without feeling insane. I've been so restless today... it feels like my brain is about to explode... my thoughts are racing so fast, and my eyes are all over the place, I can't think or concentrate, and writing this is very difficult, although it's beginning to flow... but I eventually run out of content anyway.. and then I have nothing left to type about. I usually just let my fingers go, they seem to know what they're doing anyway :P

Something funny:
http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/plugs.php

It's funny how much traffic I'm getting.. it seems to be going up steadily... seems a lot more hits are coming from Godly Gods than before.. I suppose thats due to it being in a one Mr. Quintile's signature, rather than just in Quintile's profile. Obviously the largest amount of hits are coming from my old webspace, the rogers webspace, about 50% of all my hits are coming from that, while 30% are coming from Godly Gods... the rest are coming from the one livejournal post I made, and the one blurty post I made, and I've got ONE hit coming from Emilys webspace, which is funny! I was looking at her awstats (advanced web stats) and it seems a good 54% of all her hits come from MY website, which is funny how it doesn't work both ways ;) but I don't mind, since 54% of her readers are already MY readers, it makes no sense to link them back really.. oh well, it's not like I get paid for hits or anything... *wonders*

I played a little bit of StarCraft today while I was bored out of my skull... I played a computer FFA on a random map in the brood war folder, and I won, after an hour and sixteen minutes of play... it was lots of fun. It wasn't easy to win; it was actually quite the struggle. For the first three quarters of the game I pretty much played the defensive, as any RTS player would know is vital in an FFA. I pretty much just built defense post around each choke point; about three different onces, and then backed them up with tanks, and eventually a mobile force of goliaths. I took a lot of damage from various attacks, and had a couple battle cruisers coming to back up my troops and it was only a matter of time as I made my way around the map defeating each enemy as they were presented... only having to retreat once. I was Terran, who I LOVE being during an FFA, and I was up against two terran, a protoss and zerg. I eliminated each of them myself :)

i stole this right from their website
haha suckers
I did actually contribute to society today, which I guess is something to be proud of, or at least feel SOMETHING about.. I helped Michelle download and install TGT Soft's Style XP, and then download the keygen and crack it ;) Then I helped her download my favorite Visual Style to actually use with Style XP, and then I helped her extract it and apply it, step by step, which as I do it A LOT, I'm okay at, but I always lose patients at certain times, for no reason. That was one nice thing I did for someone... later in the night, I got fed up with trying to read Beths journal, as it uses white text, on a white background, with a tiny black background image in the corner, as if it was supposed to cover the WHOLE background, but as with all variable sized pages, when someone with a higher resolution than the background image accesses the webpage, the page is stretched to fit it, NOT the image, so I offered to fix it, so it was readable by anyone who had a higher resolution than 800x600, and she acccepted and then just changed the page background color to #000000 (black) and replaced any TRANSPARENT with black, as the transparecy was useless with the current setup. Now I can go and read it without getting super annoyed and just closing it, and I think she was happy with it too. A third thing, I think it was yesterday, I helped Madison hook up the microphone thats installed in her webcam , select it, and then configure it with MSN so she can do audio conversations, and she tested it with me; she was really cute, saying things like: "Oh my god! You can hear me?? I can hear you!! I like this! This is so neat!!".

I suppose that's it for now, as I've pretty much ran out of things to write, well... yeah I guess so.. my brain seems to have emptied out a bit, which really, really helps with that whole relaxing thing I was talking about earlier. I've calmed down a bit, although my leg is constantly bouncing to NO music, just the soft, sexy sound of Conan. I've been listening to more Mars Volta than anything lately, over and over again. My favorite songs are Son et Lumiere, which is an intro into Inertiatic ESP, which are both beyond amazing, I can't really put into words the energy they infuse into me. Also, Cicatriz ESP, which is 12 minutes long, is also a masterpiece of art, and keeps you entranced through the whole song, and probably my favorite, because of its powerful sound, and 'never gets old' music, Roulette Dares (The Haunt Of) is really, really enjoyable. I highly recommend you start downloading this album, which you can do here: click here to view the available albums. It's only about 50 megs and it's soooo worth it.. Listen to it over and over and you'll love it. I suppose I'll lay down now. Goodnight and sleep well.

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Jenny
January 01, 2000
"she said, 'Yeah, too bad we can't do anything, cause people will talk ya know', and it's funny, because she's completely right." I'm pretty sure no one would even notice if you and michelle did something. letting that stop you would just be getting your
Unknown
January 01, 2000
I'm number one! (on the friends list...) YAY for alphabetical order! Hang out with me this weekend? I miss you like whoa.
Michelle
January 01, 2000
hey lets have crazy wild sex this weekend! we seem to love doing that! <3 the sex fiend
emily
January 01, 2000
Well, since I AM his girlfriend, I think I have the right to join you guys in the wild sex.

Uhh unless Michelle, you wanna get into the kinky lesbian sex, cause I'll be up for that too. HAHA! (just let me know *winks)
Ally
January 01, 2000
there will be absolutely NO (thats right,NO) lesbian sex with out the Allyster.
Jordan
January 01, 2000
Well... I damn well better be there as well.

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