June 01, 2006 9:25PM
Wasted Day
Today started out good enough... in fact I had great hopes for today; something felt different, very different. I got up early but I didn't feel tired, I ate a breakfast, and I decided to take a more active role in trying to make myself feel happy. For the first time in months and months, I went out to the living room and played some games... I even cooked tomatos, because that smell makes me feel safe and comfortable. I just wanted to share some excitment, a few smiles, enjoy the day, play lots of games... feel relaxed and good.
I guess it was around 5:30pm that I just.. I dunno, gave up completely. Nothing was happening and I wasn't feeling how I wanted to feel and I just gave up, flopped down on the bed and slept until now (9:30pm). Michelle is asleep now, and I have this quiet rage inside me because I'm angry that today was such a wasted, peice of shit day.
High points: I played a few minutes of Metroid Prime, and shared the Iron & Wine album Our Endless Numbered Days with Dylan.
Low points: the rest.
I think I'm going to try again... try to feel something. I'm going to play a few games... probably get frustrated with my lack of attention span and then yell some form of curse word and give up... but at least I will have tried.
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Timeline
- I lived on Grey St.
- Michelle was my Roommate
4 Comments
ahhhh i needed to talk to michelle before she went to sleep.... wake her up or turn on your phone, or both. we're suppose to go to lunch tomorrow and i don't know when or where to meet her...
She went to bed at 5:30.
I'll have her call you when she wakes up in the morning.
That's exactly how my day was, and I felt the same way too. It's kind of funny, how in my journal entry I also wrote that you and I listening to that album was a high point.
Thanks for that by the way, I finished downloading the discog. too. Brilliant. Talk to you soon then. Bye!
It was really fun playing games last night, I had lots of fun, we must play more tomorrow!
:)
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