Excessive

Headache after headache, rarely feeling comfortable... this is the story of my days. Today Michelle, Ally, Mark and myself went to the market for various things... mainly Ice Cream, but also bread and mushrooms just cause. We sat around and ate our snacks, and walked around a bunch, eventually going to the brewery for booze, and then Ally went home, and Mark came back to my place to hang out for the rest of the day, till it was later (like.. 9:30 or something.. time went way fast).

Spent the day with Ally, Michelle and Mark.

Not only am I really tired, but my mind just feels so exhausted. Yesterday evening I had a nap, as I mentioned earlier; as a result I was unable to sleep later on, not that I even tried. I just stayed up... playing games... watching shows.

Today started out good enough... in fact I had great hopes for today; something felt different, very different. I got up early but I didn't feel tired, I ate a breakfast, and I decided to take a more active role in trying to make myself feel happy. For the first time in months and months, I went out to the living room and played some games... I even cooked tomatos, because that smell makes me feel safe and comfortable. I just wanted to share some excitment, a few smiles, enjoy the day, play lots of games... feel relaxed and good.

I appreciate the rain. I really enjoyed seeing the sky light up, and the floor vibrate; it was very... soothing.

I woke up at a good time today, around 11:30am or so, and then I called my Mom to let her know I was up and that I was going to meet her when she was done work. Afterwards I watched an episode of Wonderfalls, to finish of the first set of DVDs, so I could lend them to my Mom.

Thom Yorks new album The Eraser is sexcellent!

http://www.mininova.org/tor/326101

These last few days have been nothing but shit; shit in it's purest form! Poop!

It's all about Dead Like Me bitches.

I know that I haven't been writing lately... and it's because I'm caught in a dead zone between being comfortable and relaxed, and depression. I'm not depressed, but I'm so close to being there, that I can't do anything else but just feel numb; if that makes any sense.