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I would say that my time has been spent well this week, and overall I've felt pretty good. It is without a doubt better than last week, for sure, and while there are always ups and downs, I feel like I really had some time to relax this week, mainly when I had time to sit down and become absorbed into a game, like Max Payne 2 or Final Fantasy 5.

I have felt down though, at times. I've been really trying to rationalize it, or... understand it and make it not an issue, take ownership of it so that it no longer brings me down and it helps to an extent.

I can't say that I'm looking forward to going back to working full time over this summer, but I realize I need the money, so that's the motivation I need, and I suppose it's only healthy for me to socialize with other humans, rather than simply stay inside 24/7. I know the kind of stress that long term Windermere exposure can have on me personally, and it doesn't lead to good things most of the time. The level of stress I feel, and my level of unhappiness, all really depends on the types of hours and shifts I get on a regular basis, what I'm responsible for, and if it's realistic.

I pretty much spent the day at the computer, playing Final Fantasy 5 on my DS or playing Max Payne 2, while listening to Wednesday's and Thursday's episodes of The Morning Stream, and I ordered pizza from Dominos for dinner, and watched Star Trek TNG with it. I guess it was a pretty good day overall.

I work at 10am tomorrow, so I don't have to go to bed too early, my intentions are to have a bath soon, take a sleeping pill, and watch Jimmy Fallon and maybe write some more until I get tired enough to sleep. Tomorrow is a wedding for 100, same as the last two Saturdays... it's a lot of work because I'm usually responsible for everything wedding related, but at least I know what I have to do going in. Sunday is Mother's Day brunch, which is a bunch of bullshit crap that I don't want to do, and probably won't have time tomorrow to get anything ready, but what are you gonna do.

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