Excessive

Another day off, and it's kind of gone in a blur. It's strange how that happens, how the days you look forward to the most transform into quick, uncomfortable or unenjoyable experiences. Not that today was either, but it was a blur, and I didn't do that much, and I didn't feel that relaxed, so overall it was kind of a lame day off, but I kind of expected as much, so I can't really be disappointed.

I'm distracted right now; I can't seem to write. I keep writing a sentence, losing my train of thought, looking at something else, or loading some other page, and I lose my focus and forget what I was going to say. I don't feel that great... I had a couple beers earlier and they've left me feeling pretty crappy. They made me feel tired, made my eyes heavy, and I got somewhat of a headache. Kind of a shitty deal really, I felt like having a beer or two because I felt very nervous, like in grade school, before you went on stage or gave a speech. Yeah, I was just sitting at the computer and felt like death, so I figured having a drink would relax me a bit, which it did, or does anyway, and after having one, I still felt like I could take the edge off a bit, so I had a second, and it did make me feel less nervous, and I had a nice talk with Ally, which I don't think I've had a real talk with for a long time, I've kind of lost touch with any real friends.

I woke up around 10am and had breakfast... just the standard two pieces of toast and a coffee breakfast. For some reason I didn't feel like being any more creative than that today, it was easy and I didn't have to think, so it was easy to go with. I felt weird and wanted to go for a walk - the sun was out but it wasn't too hot yet, I wanted some snacks and the rest of the ingredients I needed to make a lasagna, so I just went for a walk to No Frills, probably the first time I ever walked there before 11am, but yeah, I left at around 10:30 and just walked slowly and enjoyed the time.

The afternoon was spent mainly alone, and I pretty much just played games, a mix of Far Cry (which I only have two levels left of, thank god), Audiosurf and messing around with some programming. Later on in the afternoon I made a lasagna from scratch... I made the tomato sauce, added ground beef, made the cheese mixture with ricotta, cottage cheese and mozzerella, and it turned out surprisingly awesome. I posted a picture on facebook for all to see, so check there if you are interested. I might post it here at a later date when I don't feel so lazy.

After dinner, I watched some of The Shield, finishing the sixth season, which means next time I will be starting the seventh and final season. It's going to be tough when I'm all done the show, and I'll be sad for a bit. Julie wants me to watch Dexter next, and she has the DVDs, so it might just be the smartest option. Once the Shield was over, I pretty much just sat down and played through a few games... trying to make progress in Far Cry, and eventually beating a level. I installed and played a couple levels from Defense Grid, and played a few songs in Audiosurf. Tried my best to relax and do the things I enjoy, but it's difficult sometimes.

I ran a bath in an attempt to feel a bit more comfortable... I was hot and sweaty and wanted to feel refreshed, and it did help. Also listening to some of the morning stream was nice, so overall it was a pretty good bath.

Tomorrow I've got work at 10am, and I took a sleeping pill a little over an hour ago, so I'm starting to feel pretty tired, and I should go to sleep. I work late tomorrow, over dinner, so it'll probably be an 11 or 12 hour shift, which is kinda lame, especially cause I open on Sunday at 7am, so I'm going to have to go to sleep right as soon as I get home, but I guess that's okay once a week.

Bed soon! Agh!

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