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Well it's stupid, I know, because I wouldn't say I'm upset, but I'm... not at rest, for what some would say is stupid... for what I say is a stupid reason. I finished Bioshock 2 last night and now I'm without a main game to focus on, to invest time into, and I've been trying to figure out what I'd want to play (both before work) and mostly after work, just kept putting in different games that I thought may interest me, but I just felt so restless and disinterested, just... ugh, it was frustrating because all I want is to be able to lose myself in a game, to feel excited and invested in something. I'm not sure what I want to play, which is the problem, but I have so many games that I could pick from, sometimes it's the fact that I have such a wide array of games to pick from that's the problem, I always second guess or wonder what that 'other' game would be like. Ah well.. I'll probably try playing a few games at once, and hopefully one of them will suck me in enough that I give it more attention and get really into it.

Work today was decent, although there was a lot of stuff we had to get ready for the entire weekend, and while we did get everything done for tonight, we didn't quite get everything done for tomorrow, which is okay and everything, but we had higher hopes. It wasn't too bad though, I didn't really get stressed out beyond the normal weirdness that work has kind of become, and things were done in a timely matter. I suppose that's all I've really got to say about work tonight... strange, I know.

It feels like Saturday today, but it's Friday. I'm not sure why... honestly. I think it may have had something to do with the type of event that was happening at work, or the time I had to start work, but something made me feel like it was Saturday. I don't know why I'm mentioning that, but I felt it was worth saying, because... it was in my head, and that's what I spit out on to these digital pages right? Shit in my head?

I feel like I've been leaving out a lot of the little details of my day to day life that I'd actually be interested in reading in the future, and only include general stuff, stuff about work and all that, shit that I'm sure I won't give a shit about in the future. It's nothing I can really change, because I simply sit down and write what comes to mind, but perhaps being aware of leaving out stuff, I'll make a better effort to include more interesting details.

I've started reading the first book in the Song of Ice and Fire series of books, Game of Thrones. As you probably know, I watched and greatly enjoyed Game of Thrones, the HBO series based on the book series, and I've already read about 400 pages of the first book in the last two weeks or so (only reading a chapter here and there when I have a few minutes to spare). I'm really enjoying it, perhaps because I can picture the characters and have a better idea of what the setting may look like and stuff, but the writing flows well, is easy to understand and it's laid out in short chapters, from different perspectives, and it never gets boring or stale, always fresh and interesting. Anyway... because of my enjoyment of the first book (which I borrowed from one Madam Bekkidybutton), I ordered the box set of the first four books from Chapters online, for only $25! It was a pretty huge sale, and couldn't resist the urge to get them as my longterm goal is to read all of the books, because I really think I'm going to continue to enjoy and like them all. The books have already arrived and are waiting for me to pick them up at the post office, so I need to take a walk and go over there to get them as soon as possible... probably on Tuesday, as it's a day off and I can get there during hours where they are open.

So I'm on day two of my 'save money' challenge... my attempt to spend a significantly less amount on food and household items, which so far has gone well. I will need to get some produce and milk soon, but the majority of food for meals is already in my house. I'm excited to see just how well I can do, and just how much money I can save, because while each month I do make a good amount of money, with my rent, rogers, and paying down my tuition and other debt, I'm slowly losing money, and while it's easy to ignore this, keep it in a dark corner in my mind and pretend it's not happening, sooner or later it will be something I have to deal with, so if I can get to a point where I can at least break even, or even make a little money, that might be in my best interest.

It's super windy and rainy out, which seems odd because it's winter, but then again it is March already... it's just weird because we didn't really have a winter. There was no snow, just two or three times when snow even stayed on the ground, and now it's storming out with rain and strong winds, it's like spring already.

I work tomorrow at 1pm until 9pm or whatever... We need to get all the stuff for tomorrow ready (obviously) but also everything for Sunday... at least that's the goal and I won't be happy unless it happens, as Sunday is just set up for disaster and it's not fair because it falls to me. I'm going to be watching Jimmy Fallon in a few minutes, as it's an entire episode dedicated to Bruce Springsteen (and his new album Wrecking Ball) and then I'll probably go to bed afterward. I might make a nice breakfast in the morning... I should probably clean up a bit before work too... do some dishes, sweep, clean the litter to ensure the cats don't murder me in my sleep.

Hopefully I'll find a game to fall in love with soon, I feel lost when I don't have one to sit down and play for an hour or two, and Bioshock 2 was filling that role for me for a while, and now it's gone!

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