Excessive

Writing out of personal obligation tonight, so it's a bit of a struggle, as I don't have very much to say, nothing specific or special, but I suppose I could just go through my day like I most often do.

I woke up at 6:15am or so, later than normal. I remember waking up and thinking I heard my phone alarm - my phone alarm being a last resort backup plan if my clock alarm doesn't wake me up. For whatever reason, I thought it was my phone alarm and that it was 6:20am, so I got up and went to the kitchen quickly because it was so late, and shortly after my phone alarm went off and scared the hell out of me. Anyway, it wasn't so much an issue that I got up late, and I needed the sleep, although the few minutes didn't make much of a difference.

I couldn't sleep last night, for a couple reasons, one being haunted, disturbing visions in my head as I lay down and try to fall asleep. So disturbing that it makes me feel so anxious, and I couldn't lay still, I had to get up a couple times. It was bothering me quite a bit, and I didn't get to sleep until after 1am, leading to only five hours of sleep or less. I felt in in class, that's for sure.

I caught the bus at the normal time, and transfered to an Oxford and got to school around the normal time... usually around 7:45am - get to the class room around 7:50am and sit in my normal seat. It was three hours of DIrectX today, followed by an hour break and then two hours of Java. DirectX is probably the most challenging class we've had so far in the program and it's very complex, very complicated C++. I wouldn't say I struggle, but it certainly takes a bit of time to really grasp a few of the technical aspects, like what constant buffers and then the finer points of C++, headers, separate class files, and so on. It takes a lot of brain power, and if I sit down to do it, but I'm tired or not feeling well, my brain will just spin it's wheels and I really just won't make any kind of progress. So yeah, that's my summary of that class's subject, the class itself is interesting because our professor is engaging, smart, down to earth and very smart. Sadly today, I think the amount of sleep I had last night caught up to me because it was very difficult to pay attention, and my eyes kept closing, and I'm usually excited for the class.

Calen, Mathew and I decided to leave at the end of DirectX to avoid our break, and attend Java via FanLive later on in the day when we weren't so hungry, tired and full of urine. We went to McDonalds for lunch on the way home and then parted ways as Calen drove me home.

I reinstalled Diablo 3 when I got home because I had accidentally installed the European version, and while I was waiting for the install, I fell asleep in bed, for like... three hours almost, so yeah, I guess I was tired. The nap put me in a weird mood and I kind of just floated around not being able to concentrate or do anything all afternoon. I felt kind of sick but also uneasy and uncomfortable. Bekki left for work at 5:00pm, and I decided that I wanted to feel better and not waste my night, and I figured the only way I could do that is if I accomplish something, so I made of list of stuff I wanted to do before I let myself play Diablo 3.

I did the dishes, cleaned the litter, swept the kitchen, cleaned up the clothes in the bedroom and attended that Java class on FanLive (which was essentially a complete waste of time). I tried working on DirectX but was too out of it to be able to process even simple thoughts, so I decided it was best if I put that off for a bit. I played Diablo 3 for a bit then, until around 6:30pm, when I made dinner. I had spaghetti and sat and watched Kitchen Nightmares while I ate, and then read a chapter of Storm of Swords afterward. Once I was done dinner, and my dessert, and went back and played Diablo 3 some more, until the servers went down at around... 8:30pm maybe?

After I stopped playing, I opened my laptop and did the DirectX homework pretty easily, my mind feeling better and everything kind of falling in place. I ran a bath, made some popcorn, and came out to the living room to watch Mythbusters and write this, so now it's late again, and I have class early again, so I really should go to sleep. I know I had a nap, so it's difficult to fall asleep and feel tired, but I really should try. I don't want to be sleepy in class again, it's the worst feeling and defeats the whole reason I'm there in the first place.

Tomorrow I've got no special plans as far as I know, and hopefully school goes well, and I can have a relaxing afternoon. I plan on making mini-panzerotti's, and hopefully all that works out.

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