Excessive

I woke up on time this morning, although I don't quite remember. The morning is kind of a haze at this point, and I don't specifically remember much of anything up until about two hours ago, and I think my level of tiredness has something to do with that, but let's see what I can do.

I woke up at 4:55am but set my alarm back by ten minutes I think... I don't quite remember but... my main memory of this morning was waking up feeling very angry, but being confused as to where this feeling of anger was coming from. It was so real, so raw and so fresh, that it felt as if I had gone to bed having a giant argument, and I was waking up with that feeling lingering, like, "great, I'm awake and now I have to deal with this negativity and whatever" but I quickly realized that I simply had a giant fight in my dream and that these feelings persisted once I had woken up, which was just so strange. It was actually really difficult to shake the feeling and not actually feel it for real, which was even stranger... a nightmare I don't wish to repeat.

I worked from 6am to 4:30pm, another long shift, and I had to rush to finish the stuff I was working on as Bekki was ready to leave and was waiting for me, so if I hadn't had a time I needed to leave, I probably could've kept working, as there seems to be an endless supply of things I wanted to accomplish before I leave. I've got one more day left in this pay period and I'm at 89 hours, so if I work my scheduled 9 hour shift tomorrow, that puts me at 98 hours worked, which... is a lot. I'm pretty tired, and it's been making me grumpy, but considering the amount I've been working, my complete lack of relaxation time, and whatever, I think I've been doing pretty well, especially the last two days, of staying in a good mood, and not letting my complete exaustion make me snappy or rude or anything like that.

I just can't wait for my day off, even though I have to go to Langarth and move more stuff, I just want to go early and get that over with so I can spend the rest of the day relaxing, which may or may not actually happen.

We got home from work at around 4:45pm, and I started working on dinner right away. I first had to clear out all the dishes, which took me awhile, and then I made pork tenderloin for dinner. It was seared pork tenderloin, served on a red wine reduction, onions and mushrooms, with mushroom risotto, and pan fried beets and carrots, fried in butter, thyme, rosemary and seeeaaasoned to perfection.

After dinner we drove to the mall to pick up Bekki's engagement ring, which she had to take in to get resized on Monday. I knew that she took a size six, but I wanted the ring right away so I didn't have to wait, so I took it home knowing we'd have to send it in to get sized, so that process is now over with and she has it back, and it's so nice to see on her hand, for many different reasons.

She dropped me off back at home, but went out for coffee with a friend, so I went upstairs, played a level of Max Payne 3, had a bath, grabbed a snack (dill pickle chips ya'll) and started to write. I'm going to wrap this up and probably relax or lay down and try to sleep by 10pm.

Just have to get through tomorrow and I get my day off, so... here's hoping I don't drop dead while working.

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