Excessive

Arrow is a really bad show. Not like Two and A Half Men bad, but like, really bad. I've watched four seasons now, every episode, and I hate almost every character. I think the writing is terrible, the dialogue makes me cringe, and almost everything in it is laughable. I still watch it for some reason, maybe just out of commitment. 

It really sucks how one small thing, for example a thirty minute experience could wreck my entire day. I could have a great day, from 8am to 3:30pm, and then if I have some uncomfortable or upsetting, it ruins my whole night. It sucks and even after all of these days of medication, I still can get ruined so quickly.

So a good day ended in me not feeling good. Feeling frustrated and embarrased and upset. I chose an easy dinner that I probably should've saved for later in the week. I don't want to do any chores, or set up for tomorrow, or anything. I wanted to make banana muffins but didn't and now I'm even more upset with myself. It's a shitty spiral that is really hard to escape.

I tried to play XCom after dinner but the game froze and I gave up. Just another thing to make me upset. I also feel pressured and frustrated with having to write, and I don't even enjoy it anymore. Everything I write feels fake and shitty, and I don't even see any value in any of the writing.

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