Excessive

Ryu - the main character Breath of Fire: Dragon Quarter

You know it's been a successful night of gaming if your thighs are stinging with pain, it feels like your hips are actually going to crack and split apart, your nuckles feel larger than your skull, and your knees ache beyond what normal human minds could comprenhend. Yes, I love gaming, and I suppose this is the price I must pay for happiness of this kind; always a tradeoff! bastards...

Yes, Breath of Fire: Dragon Quarter has consumed my soul, making it belong to quite the exclusive club mind you; I've seriously been contemplating if it's actually one of the greatest games ever made, and the way things are going, I don't see how it can't be. It's got action, mystery, huge horned half dragon half suffering boy creatures, a cute girl named Nina and a great story, deep strategy and tons of replayability. I can't seem to peel myself away, and when I think about it, I think: There is no way I can play Star Ocean now, not after playing this game... there's no way I could get back into it. and I've been going through this for quite a few nights now... the thing is, I always force myself to put in the other game, and I end up getting waaay back into the game within an hour, and I think the same thing... I'll never play Dragon Quarter again after this! and.. each time I get more and more into each game, and want to play them more and more, and I just wish my life was nothing but playing these games and smiling and being happy... that's what like SHOULD be... it's sad that we've made it into something else.. something everyone hates and no one ever thinks it could or would ever change.

I've pretty much transformed back into an insane insomniac now... I only ever sleep if it's accompanied by a ton of sleeping pills. Take tonight for example... I didn't sleep late, in fact, I was up earlier than I had wanted to be, and I was tired... ALL DAY, but nope, here I am at 9:30 in the god damn morning and I haven't slept a wink yet... in fact only now are my eyes even begginning to feel a bit dried out... now don't confuse that for tired... tired is something else, this is just my body calling me an idiot. I sometimes just wish I could be normal... lately I don't know who I am and I'm getting quite sick of it actually... I'm not who i thought I was I suppose, but I'm not sure where that leaves me.

Interesting Fact of the Day: When I turned off my Xbox and decided to go write this entry, I noticed Kairi was licking the top of the TV; what a great cat... is lovable AND dusts.

So what is up for today? Well... I'm betting around 10:30 or so, I'll crawl into bed to spite myself, and eventually fall asleep (maybe 11 or 12) and wake up later on in the afternoon, most of the day completely wasted away, and I'll have aches in my back and neck. Thus, my day is ruined AND I'll be horribly depressed due to my complete fucking up of the day. Things just aren't going to go well this week I fear...

I could write more, but of course I have a busy day of depressing myself, and becoming phsyically uncomfortable! yay. *runs to the gun closet*

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