Excessive

I wish I had more time because there is so much I want to do. I want to read forever, and not worry about anything. I want to play all my games, and create countless websites and projects that will enhance my life. I want to spend time with those I love and not worry about what time I have to got bed, or what time I have to wake up, or when I'll be getting home from work. So much planning around limited time, it's getting tiresome.

I slept in really late today... later than I probably would've liked to ideally. Kind of feels like a completely wasted day, but it felt good to sleep that much so it's kind of an interesting trade off. I do end up feeling regretful and annoyed when it gets late and I have to go to bed. Here it is 12:22am, I have to wake up in 6 hours, and yet I'm wide awake and no where near wanting to go to bed.

Why do I always have to feel like the one that's trapped? Why do I have to feel uncomfortable? Why do I feel nervous about tomorrow, why do I feel like cutting myself. Why do I worry so much? Why?

I don't really have much time to write an entry... just wanted to let everyone know that I'm working Monday to Friday from 3pm to 11:30pm, which translates to me leaving home at 2:00pm and getting home at 12:30am... so as you can see, I don't really have much time to update everyone on what I'm doing... most likely the weekend will be when I actually tell everyone what's going on.