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I love that I have a count down to the end of work... really gives me something to help me get through the days.
What the hell happened to mininova? It always takes over thirty seconds to load, if it loads at all, and all it's functions take forever to execute, so it's a pain in the ass to search, download or look around. It's too bad it's the best torrent site on the net, or I wouldn't be so disappointed.
I woke up all nervous today. I hadn't in a while really, and god damn that feeling is so.. unique and powerful.. it really hurts. I wake up and look at the clock and it hits me, and I stay in bed as long as possible because I feel safe; I won't even get up to have breakfast or a drink or anything. I leave the house at 11:20 or so, and I get out of bed at 11:17. Make sense? Nah. I dunno what's wrong with me... but I know I have meds for it and I should really be taking them... I really need to think about my life and what the hell I'm doing. Why do I randomly stop my meds cold turkey? cause I think they aren't doing anything? well, I get to a place in my life like this where they obviously were doing something...
beautiful.breathtaking.emily
It's probably quite obvious by now that it's increasingly difficult for me to update regularly while holding this job, but I think it's just because I'm not in the routine and the such... I mean, I'm sure if I set aside a time to do it, I could probably manage to keep it updated, but I don't think it will ever be as greatly updated as it has been in the last month or two, because I alsways used to do that when I was on my sleeping pills and really tired, and I had hours to do it, so now I don't think they'll live up to that standard, and that kind of pisses me off. I haven't been up to that much lately, but enough to justify an entry I suppose.