Excessive

It's hard to pinpoint exactly why I haven't been writing as much lately, and I believe there is a trend where as my happiness and general comfort goes up, my writing goes down, and this is because I used to use writing as a coping mechanism (I think) and I would do it to stave off loneliness, to give me something to do, to have a routine I stick to, to write to an imaginary audience which made me feel less alone.

Oh man what a tiring day. I worked for 11.5 hours today, had to wait for an hour downtown for a bus, and I have to wake up at 6am tomorrow to go to school for a full day, and I need to pack a lunch and make sure I have breakfast to eat tomorrow morning (which I don't really).

I really hate groups that distribute TV caps that break them into RAR files. WHY!? Why do they do it? Multiple files in a torrent makes no sense! Everyone needs to download them all, so why not just make it the normal file? It just makes an extra step after you've got it, and sometimes it can take a long time to unrar them (if it's a large file, like 700 to 1.3GB). It just bugs me and makes no sense at all.

This weekend has been amazing... I spent nearly the entire thing with Vanesa, and Friday with her and Nick, and Saturday with her and Brit. I had such a good time, I can't really think of words adequate enough to describe it. The experience was so surreal, than when they left, I had to remind myself that it was real. I felt so good and smiled so much... it didn't really matter what went on or what was talked about, nothing could make me feel down or upset, I just felt happy, and for once in the longest time I didn't feel numb. I'm not doing a good job of putting it into words... but oh well.