Excessive

My plan was to write an entry tonight, ya know, one with some meat to it. I have a pretty bad headache, probably a 7 on the headache scale, so I can barely open my eyes because of the pain, so I'm certainly not going to sit here and type for a half an hour.

While the dark grey skies that drown out the sun can be somewhat of a downer, the sky redeems itself when it thunderstorms, but I've been waiting and waiting and it's just dark, with no benifits! What's the deal with that?

Makes me cry but I can never stop listening. I've been listening for years and it still gets to me. [cut name=Lyrics]

So I'm heading to Hamilton today for the ol' Easter ham dinner ala Grandpa. I'm looking forward to the comforting meal and sitting around and stuff. I've got my DS for the car, and a broken iPod that freezes every five minutes, but I figure.. after each song I can hard reset it, so it doesn't freeze. It's only an hour ride, so it's no biggie, the thing I'll do the most is play Elite Beat Agents and FF6a. I was going to invite Michelle to come but she said she had plans to go places with her Mom that day so I didn't. It's boring anyway for anyone who isn't family, so it's probably for the best.

Alright so I haven't been writing, but that's alright. In the last little while I've had quite a bit of stuff I could've written about, but now it's been awhile so it doesn't feel right. I can summarize though, oh can I ever.

I totally remember why I don't drink often, and I always say I will never do it again. So.. I'm never gonna drink again.

Yay, I got the new Bright Eyes album! Hooray!

It's been a weird last few days, I'll say that.

The last day or two have been days of relative tremendous change, something that I've never quite dealt with well... change is something I avoid at all costs, but as a wise man once said, sometimes it's good to just bust your cycle.

These bleak, lonely, dull grey skies do nothing to infuse me with energy and hope, rather they seem to suck energy and comfort out of me at such a rate it's dangerous. I try to get up early and be energetic, to clean up, to feel good, but I just find myself cold, lonely and completely apathetic. I know that it's because of these stupid dark days, and I'm trying real hard for it not to affect me but I just feel the coldness in my bones and I can't help but feel lazy and blah. Fuck you grey skies, fuck you in the tender clouds.