Excessive

For the last few days I haven't felt very good. I've been feeling very down, sad, depressed, apprehensive and anxious. I think for the most part it can be blamed on the fact that I've been getting up later in the day and up later in the night... it's a subtle difference really, but it seems to have some effect on me, or at least I think it is. I feel low again, and apprehensive towards the future... sick of not getting a job from all the places I've applied, and now there aren't even any jobs to apply for. I feel distant from Emily... I've only talked to my Mom once in the last two weeks. I don't really know what's going on... is it all in my head? I don't know where to begin... There's so much I want, and I don't seem to be getting any of it.

hot. naima.

hotter. norelle.

I've been really wanting to do something new with the site... add something, a new section, improve something... just DO something... but nothing comes to mind. I attempted to create a php script that would manage my ROMs, how often they're played etc... but that didn't work out due to technical limitations. It just couldn't do what I had in mind... I'd have to do it through some C# or even VB.net, both of which I don't have, since I haven't had VS.net in a long time... so I guess that whole idea went down the drain. Another idea was making an actual ROM mini-site, with roms available for download, for free, with no accounts needed, no advertising, details on the game, screenshots, quality checks, votes, polls and comments... but I'd need roughly 1.5 to 2 gigs of webspace to accomplish that, and well... i have about 100mb.

I think I have to stop thinking right now, because I'm getting more and more depressed by the second.

It's really been quite a long time since I've actually sat down and wrote a solid entry; lately it's been a lot of pictures, screenshots and one or two paragraph 'quick entries'. I don't think there's really a specific cause to the lack of content, other than the fact that I haven't been horribly depressed, and when I'm not horribly depressed, the rate at which I update my website goes down, as has been seen in the past. It's actually kind of hard to figure out what to talk about and in what order...

I've been pretty happy lately playing a lot of Super Metroid. Emily is also playing through the game so I get to watch her, which is fun in it's own way. Emily, at one point, told me to sit down and play through the game from start to finish in under 2 hours. So I did. I finished the game with 1 hour and 33 minutes on the clock. So, along with that game, I also have my more 'serious' game, which I'm attempting to collect 100% of the items, and just take my time... since I rushed through so quickly before.

Dead