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March 19, 2003 11:38AM

Too Much GOD DAMN FUCKING work..
  • I lived with Ben on Cartier
  • I was with Linzie
  • I worked at Pizza Hut

Yesterday I closed at work, which means I didn't get to see Linzie, except for the hour before I had to leave. It really didn't take me long to get in charge of pizza hut :) I'm the boss on the days I close (Monday and Thursday's it looks like). It sucks that I don't get to see Linzie, but it was really nice to call her and for her to make me feel loved and missed. She wrote me a nice email and it made me feel important, so that's better than feeling like she didn't care I was gone. She might come and hang and/or help me out at work once and awhile.

I keep wanting to stop taking my pills because I hate the side effects and then Linzie comes over and I keep changing my mind because I just want to be awesome for her and the pills help me stay happy and not depressed, and depressing. I know most people would give me that "do it for yourself" bullshit, but the world doesn't work that way really. I do it partially for myself, and partially for Linzie, which in the end will help me right? Ah, fuck you. I think maybe the effects are getting better anyway.. so.. yeah, fuck you.

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March 17, 2003 12:37PM

Such a Nice Day..
  • I lived with Ben on Cartier
  • I was with Linzie
  • I worked at Pizza Hut

Today was a good day. I spent the afternoon with Linzie, laying and just being together. It was such a warm beauitful day.. waiting for the bus was actually enjoyable and just the feeling of sun made/makes me happy. Work was okay today because it wasn't freezing, wasn't busy and Julia kept me company. When I got home from work, Linzie had a candle lit table set up for us to eat dinner :) It was such a pleasant surprise. I sometimes forget how romantic she is at heart. very unexcpected, but very appreciated!


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March 13, 2003 11:37PM

It's Been A Long Time I guess
  • I lived with Ben on Cartier
  • I was with Linzie
  • I worked at Pizza Hut

I've wanted to write for a long time now I guess, but I haven't really had the opprotunity or.. well, the motivation, or something along those lines. I usually like writing alone and my computer isn't in my room anymore, so I can't write when I'm alone. So I never feel like I can sit down and write. Which means I've been writing a lot more in my personal journal, rather than here online, where most of the visitors, if not all of them, have already stopped coming.


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February 23, 2003 11:37PM

Asses
  • I lived with Ben on Cartier
  • I was with Linzie
  • I worked at Pizza Hut

It's gotten to the point where people don't even send me messages anymore.

Now, people don't even write back to me if I send a message. Holy shit people.

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February 22, 2003 11:37PM

I Watched The Stars As They Fell From The Sky
  • I lived with Ben on Cartier
  • I was with Linzie
  • I worked at Pizza Hut

Yup so, everything in my life is pretty much falling apart, whether I or other people want to admit to it. Nothing is going good and everything is getting worse. Pretty soon I'll be alone and.. extremely not good. Yup.. I want it to end.

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February 18, 2003 11:37PM

Blah
  • I lived with Ben on Cartier
  • I was with Linzie
  • I worked at Pizza Hut

I have to go for a root canal tomorrow. I've been on medication and tylenal 3's for the last little while because of tooth aches. I'm losing my mind more and more each day and I'm so paranoid of everything it's hard to function. I'll be inquiring for medication to help me with my mind. It's crippling, tearing my life apart and the such. I've felt like crap for the last 19 days. Other than that, nothing much has been going on.

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