Excessive

There's this retarded lady that sits behind me, and across from Mark, who is so stupid, it actually makes me sick to my stomache listening to her. You know, I may manipulate the customers so that I have longer calls, but I always tell the truth about things... this lady just lies and lies about everything. What prompted me to post this entry was her talking about free software.

She said something along the lines of, "there is no such thing as free software on the internet, everything comes with a price *Dun dun dun* Ma'am, do you read the lisence agreement for all the free software you download? Well, it basically says for all of them, by agreeing you agree to let this free software use some of your bandwidth to advertise on other people's computers!" WHAT THE FUCK?? Ohhh poor stupid lady. Spybot Search and Destroy, AdAware, AVG Free, Firefox, Winamp... those a few applications I use that are completely free, and strangley they DON'T use up my bandwidth trying to get new customers. The retarded lady was just trying to sell Norton products, probably the worst security product in the history of computers.

So it looks like I MAY be getting fired in the next week or so, due to being late for a fifth time this year. So... I should be more nervuos than I am.. but I'm not. Teletech maybe? Steve? should I? Maybe I should look for something else first.

this is how I feel - I wrote an email to someone but might as well post it here too

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I don't know, but I have various reasons to be upset right now... a few things really, probably the most important would be my job security, but these added pressures of bad calls, exgirlfriends and generally just feeling numb in the head aren't helping anything at all.

I wish I could have just felt awake and energized today; I mean I did sleep a whole hell of a lot, but instead I feel numb and not quite awake, not really feeling anything but heavy inside, like there is something weighing on me. I feel nervous inside because of my unsureness of whether or not I'm going to have a job in a week... about how I'm going to pay rent, or bills, or food. I'm nervous abuot getting a new job... I don't want a new job, I'm almost starting to get a routine, I don't want to start from scratch again.

god dammit.

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