Excessive

I feel good today. I feel fucking good today. I took a break from my excessive coke snorting and drunkeness to go over to Michelle's yesterday to fix, and then pimp out her new computer. It was actually a lot of fun to get in there and fix it and then turn into it a fine tuned machine haha; very satisfying to accomplish those things. I basically made it a desktop version of my laptop, which is perfect in eeevery way!

Michelle's Mom was very nice to me, and she even bought everyone pizza, and I was just scared she wouldn't like me, as I've had problems with parents in the past. So her being nice to me meant a lot, and her Dad was very nice to me as well, which made me feel even better. I also saw Jess a bit, and checked out her room and I was very impressed. I dunno why but I really liked it and it had personality and warmth and stuff. I like going over there because it's like a two for one deal, I get to hang out with my two best friends, even if one of them doesn't want to! HAH! Beat that suckers. I hope to make it a more frequent adventure... maybe run required maintainance on the computers each month or something.

Last night when I was at home, Michelle had left and I was drinking Coke and eating chips, playing Paper Mario 2, and typing on my laptop at the same time, when I realized I felt really happy. I didn't feel drugged up on lithium or olanzapine, I felt a warmth inside me... my apartment is spotless... last night i cleaned my room while watchign Raw, and Michelle slept. I feel so good to be in my house now... it feels new and fresh, kind of like me or my life. The hurtful things specific people said to me, for no other reason than to hurt me, don't seem to bother, and those I tell about it seem to think it's hilarious. I just can't get over how petty it is... pointless and meaningless; it makes the accuser look worse than the accused. I went to bed smiling...

This morning I woke up early, cooked poached eggs on toast with coffee. Yes, this is like a once in a lifetime thing that doesn't really happen very often, but I was determined to turn my life around, to turn my attitude around anyway. I didn't really enjoy the coffee.. perhaps because the milk has gone bad? or maybe the sugar has ants in it? I dunno, but I poured it down the drain and had a coke. I ate one piece of toast with the egg but I got full and couldn't eat the other, so I threw it in the garbage, and I just know it's going to be covered in ants when I get home... grrr.. fucking ants. Oh well... I'll just windex them to death like the bastards they are... if only you could windex EVERYTHING YOU HATE to death.. now that would be the perfect world *stares*.

The trip to work was normal, except I was dressed up today, stinky blazer i unstinked by washing it even though it was dryclean only, pin stripped jeans, small dress shirt, tie, and glasses and boots (ill take a picture maybe). I listened to Miss Kittin on the way to work, until I met up with Mark on the bus, and we went the rest of the way together (kinda like gay lovers). So far work has been going pretty well actually... I was a bit nervous coming since I still haven't found my security badge but asshole security hippy wasn't there so I got in fine... but I have to buy a new one and I 'dont have the money' right now *wink* so I dunno what to do. Abuot half way through the morning, Mark came up to me and said "Dude I'm fired!!". Yeah, apparently he got fired from the convention center... so in honor of the event, this entry is now...

FIRED

Tommorrow I'm getting my cat paw tattoo on my wrist, and Mark is getting his mystery tattoo... then I'm going to a rogers store to pay off some of my bill, then I'm going back to Michelle's to finish working on the computers. Other than that, I think we're up to date. You should all be happy for me because even when faced with insults and childish behaviour, I saw passed it and feel okay. Things are going great! I think... hah. Talk to you all later.

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