Excessive

Today was another strange day... strange in that most things went well, although I feel like I carried the majority of the work; What else is new I guess.

The early morning could've been more enjoyable, it was rather unpleasent, and if I could do it over again, I would do it differently. I woke up to the alarm, at around 6:20am, but I was so tired and uncomfortable, all I wanted in the world was more sleep. I got up, had a drink and went the washroom, but quickly decided to go back to sleep. Yes, going back to sleep means I wouldn't be able to take a bus to work, and that I would have to pay for a cab, but I would get thirty to forty more minutes of sleep. Essentially, I paid $15 for 30 minutes of sleep this morning, and right now that seems really stupid, but at the time it seemed like the best plan in the world. It's actually more stupid than you'd think, because that extra sleep that I got, was hardly enjoyable. I was tossing and turning, waking up every few minutes and looking at the clock... I should've just got up, saved money and taken the bus. That feeling of regret... not that awesome.

I started work at 8am, and immediately started working on the wedding. Jill was in for breakfast, and the only other event was the wedding, so I figured she could handle the cafe on her own, which she can, so I started working on the vegetable bundles right away, as I figured it would be the least enjoyable job there was to do. They were a slightly more annoying version of vegetable bundles - grilled eggplant, zuccini and red pepper tied with a chive or green onion. It's much more time consuming than you'd imagine, as I need to cut all of the veg, then grill it, then cut it again into the right sizes, then steam the onion and then tie them into knots as a bundle... ugh.

After veg was done, I started work on the salads, which were cucumber rings salads, which is basically a ring of thiny sliced cucumber, with mixed greens inside and cherry tomatoes on top. This is also a time consuming endeavor, as I need to perfectly slice the cucumbers and make rings out of them, which is by far the most tedious part of the job. Finally, once salads were done and out of the way, I did the cheesecakes which were the dessert, which is the easiest of the jobs by far. I simply had to place the cake on a side plate, pipe a rosette of whipped cream and place a strawberry on it. Pretty easy and it goes by quickly, so I really don't mind doing that specific job.

The main frustration with the day came from being the only person there committed to actually doing work it seems. I don't neccessarily mean this as an insult towards anyone, but when my end time is decided by how much work has been done, and no one but me is doing any of the work while others say.... stand around, or go outside five million times, or just don't manage time or priorities in the most effective way, I feel like if I worked like others, nothing would get done on time. I feel like I always complain about this very thing, always complain about work. Normally it doesn't bother me enough to get frustrated, but Saturday's are usually an exception to this because I open on Sunday and have very little time to get it ready, so people being lazy and not working effeciently really kinda fucks me over the next day, so it would be nice if people took shit seriously sometimes. On top of feeling like I work a lot more than I should have to, I feel like I have to be in charge of everyone, whether directly or indirectly through suggestion, I give suggestions on what people should do, but today, there were so many people in. I don't get paid enough to be a manager, or a supervisor... I don't get paid enough to simply work as hard as I do. I was supposed to have been given a raise back last January/February, and have still yet to recieve it. What a fucking joke that is right? I totally given up on the idea at this point, I just find it insulting that my personal welfare, my money, my well being is of no concern to the management at work.

Since I got most of the wedding done, and only the minor things remained, and I had started on brunch prep, and had got others working on things, I got to leave an hour early... yes, I single-handedly did almost the entire wedding, and got some brunch prep done and still left early. It was nice, as I believe this might be the first Saturday in two years that I had the evening off.

When I got home, I had a snack and then cleaned up a bit... just did the dishes and tidied up around the place, cleaning out the litter and taking out the garbage. I figured I had enough energy to clean, and it would make me feel better afterward - let me feel a bit more relaxed. After cleaning up, I read a chapter of the Chamber of Secrets, and then finally decided to have dinner, as I was pretty hungry, and it was about 5:00pm.I just made spaghetti for dinner, as you all know, it's my food of comfort. I keep frozen tomatoes in the freezer (duh.. where else would I keep them) and they are portioned for one meal at a time, so it's perfect and easy. I enjoyed dinner while watching uhhh... I don't remember. Something... oh yeah, Conan. Yeah... he's still not that funny.

After dinner I made coffee and had the rest of my Hershey's almond bar, which was nice, but I sat down at the computer with the intention of enjoying my coffee over some reading or a game, but found myself unable to find any entertainment anywhere. For some reason I drank my coffee really fast... I really enjoyed it, and when I was done, I decided to work on some programming, which ended up being a bit of a mistake I think.

As I mentioned over the last few days, I've been working on a script that would extract old time stamps to entries from old long lost data files, and then update the current database with those new times, thus making the archives that much more accurate, especially when collectiong statistics on time trends of when I make posts and things like that. Well anyway, I decided to work on that for a bit, or finish it actually. The problem is that there were problems with it... I'm exactly sure what those problems were, and I was fairly certain I had tested it enough before actually running it, but when I ran it, unexpected issues showed up. The main problem is that it erased a lot of the date data from the entries i was trying to fix in the first place, and that resulted in the archives not working, and then I had to do some more programming to find which entry data had become corrupt, and manually change the dates back to what they were before. Ugh... and after I had fixed it, I'm not even sure how many times got updated to accurate times, or if I actually fixed all of the things that went wrong, as some of the issues could be hidden.

Afterward, I decided to run a bath, which I did, but I'm all caught up on the Morning Stream, so I just put on the latest City and Colour album and relaxed for a bit. Afterward, I put on a movie, Chamber of Secrets, and sat down to write. I realize that I've watched that movie within the last month, but since I'm reading the book, and I didn't pay very close attention to it last time I watched it, for whatever reason, I wanted to watch it again with the book fresh in my heads, just to see what they put in, changed, left out and all that fun stuff.

I was going to write a huge long rant about how today I was in a terrible mood... I was going to yell about how people can be so stupid, how people can be so hurtful and careless and not even realize or care. I am so tired at this point, and it's been so long since was initially angry about it, that it doesn't seem to want to come out right now.

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