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Yesterday was pretty good I suppose... Sunday night though I felt abandonded, alone and scared; it happens after I spend a long period of time - days - around someone and all of a sudden I'm left alone... it's like a shock to the system and I don't know what to do with myself.

I've run out of food, and my cats have run out of dry food, so they get a can of wet food when I wake up, and a can before bed, and they are constantly begging me for food. Michelle brought me a box of kraft dinner, and Ally brought me a helping of her homemade stew... she even put a note on it to not eat it cause it's for me and it made me want to cry cause I love her. It's such a little thing, but that's all that matters in life anyway. So I'm good for food for a couple days thankfully... I don't eat much anymore; since I ran out of food a week or two ago, I've only been eating once a day, and even then it's usually half a small fries or so, so I've pretty much completely lost my apetite.

I'm starting to feel better about work... I don't get quite as nervous lately about going, and I'm becoming much more confident handling calls - mainly because I know how to control them now, and Mark and I have almost perfected the art of slacking off to a point that amazes me. We somehow turn two fifteen minute breaks and a thirty minute lunch into almost two hours haha. So although I still dislike having to go to work everyday, it is getting a bit easier. Mark and I are suffering through it together... we're both poor as shit and split each others fries for lunches and complain and stalk certain people... basically if I hadn't met Mark I probably would've been fired and/or quit by now.

Yesterday at work went pretty fast, mostly due to Allys dedication to entertain me with text; we emailed each other back and forth for pretty much the whole time, except for my breaks, at which point I went on MSN and talked to her there hehe. The day went by fairly quickly and before I knew it we were out the door... and on our way to the dissent of course.

A pretty typical monday night - noise night - Ally promised to come and I gave her the neopets presents I had, and she gave me stew, and Jeff bought Mark and I drinks and we all had a pretty fun time, making music with our bottles and talking and stuff. Sarah and Jeff showed up later on and it was nice to see them, and Michelle bought me McDonalds which I consumed like I had never eaten before ( i was fucking hungry ). We listened to the band for a bit, then they had an intermission, and Michelle had to catch the last bus so we walked her to dundas and richmond and she got on her bus and I licked the window goodbye and Mark and I walked home.

I spent the night laying around for an hour or two, talking to Michelle on the phone, and then I watched an hour of Home Movies - oh lord how I love it (as always). It was the Wizards Baker! and coach buys a bunch of swords! :D After that I reworked the dissent gallery so it loads a ton faster and uses a buttload less bandwidth, and I also added nine more pictures. The rest of the night I talked to Dylan and listened to The London Apartments (as seen in my previous entry).

I ended up going to bed around 4am, and I woke up at 5:30 and for some reason I thought I had to be up by 6:00 and I thought this for about 10 minutes as I got ready to get up... I don't know what I was smoking... but I actually swore out loud about how stupid I was and then went back to sleep. Eventually I got up around 10:30, got all ready, got my stew in my bag and my headphones and stuff, and then laid back down until 11:17am, then I got up, put on my headphones (I'm way too obsessed with the Black Eyed Peas) and was off for the bus.

So far work is going pretty slow. Mark, Jeff and I had more phone training today for a half hour... we stretched it out to about an hour though, and I've had some pretty lame calls... but the command "sfc /scannow" is now my best friend as no one knows what it does so you can say its for any problem, and it buys me a good half hour to say.. oh I dont know.. update my website? haha.

Tonight Michelle is sleeping over and I assume we'll play some video games and maybe... maybe I'll eat some food. OH! Rogers gave me my final written warning lastnight. I have two days to pay them $218 or they'll shut off my cable and internet, so you may not see me online anymore. Michelle said she'd help me and call them and try to talk them into waiting for two weeks before they shut it off. Also, I'm going to be short rent and I can't ask my Mom for help, so Michelle said she'd try to help me too... so basically Michelle is like an angel who protects me... which might be a bad thing since depending on people sucks, but hey.. I'll take the help. Also, Makai Kingdom comes out tomorrow, and I preordered it and paid $6 of it off, but now I don't have the money to actually go out and purchase it, so.. I guess I'm gonna call them and ask them if they can hold it for two weeks to when I can afford it.

I guess I should go back to work now... this sfc scan should be done any minute and I've pretty much ran out of depressing things to talk about. Make sure you go check out my gallery, and buy some webspace with webkore... aaand go to the dissent on days other than friday and saturday :) peace out.

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