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I woke up feeling dead today, not like.. physically, but mentally. Yeah okay, that was a terrible way to open this but I'm not going to backspace it.. nope, gonna keep writing.

I felt down, and I have been having a pretty rough time staying content during the last couple days, I've felt super sensitive, easily upset, and hopeless. It's hard to explain but I just get overwhelmed with feelings of laziness, despair, hopelessness...

I wasn't looking forward to going to work, but I did, and I was alone to put out a buffet for some lame Bob Seager tribute thing. I not only had to put it out by myself, but I had to carve on the buffet and then wait and put it away before I could leave, and to add insult to injury, I have to open tomorrow.

I've felt sick all day, on top of being depressed or whatever you want to call it. I've felt lightheaded, feverish and achey. I slowly got a headache, and now I sit at home, feeling anxious, with a strong headache and my sinuses are completely blocked, but not due to sickness but just because I seemed to be cursed to be 100% uncomfortable at all times. I took a sleeping pill for some relief, but I dunno if that's a good idea. I've been taking them the last day or two and I always regret it. I think they make me snore more than normal, and I don't wanna snore.

I wanna read a bit before I have to sleep...

I have so much more I could write about but my head hurts so much and I just don't feel like I can write right now. I really want there to be a time where I can sit down and just drain my mind of all I want to get out. I got a bonus on my paycheque, some extra tips, and I need to buy a new laptop... or want to, or well.. it's a tough call. My laptop overheats and the fan constantly runs super loud so it's really obnoxious in class... a new laptop would be perfect, maybe just a cheap one to program on, but then I need one to play Diablo 3 on! So maybe a desktop? So a cheap ass laptop and build a desktop? But I don't have money!

Oh and I want a garden and there is a ton of anxiety coming from that, and it's overwhelming at the moment.

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