Excessive

Today was quite different than what I had planned, as was last night. I had wanted to have today as a day I accomplished a lot, I even talked to my Mom about it, and her response was, "well, you better wake up really early to get it all done" and things did not go as planned. I was hungover, in pain and dealing with things.

I came home dead tired yesterday after Mother's Day brunch, a brunch that went very well (and I mostly ran myself, thanks). I was getting a headache, and I had already created a plan for myself, a to-do list, a list of things I wanted to accomplish to get ready for my Mom's birthday dinner that's taking place tomorrow night (Tuesday). I got asked to go out for a drink and at first I faught it, first I said no. Since I had already set in my mind what I wanted to do, but I gave in and maybe I shouldn't.

It was with Bekki and a bunch of people from work, servers mostly, and I guess it would've been fine if we had just gone to a patio for one hour and then went home, but one drink led to a million, and I'm going to go into it, but rest assured, I certainly drank too much and regret it, regret the entire night. I wish I stayed home and had been myself, had cleaned the house and played a game. I guess I felt bad, I felt bad, and guilty and jealous because Bekki wanted to go but I didn't, and us having completely seperate social lives is not a pit I want to fall into, I don't want seperate social lives at all... I stay at home and she goes out? We'll drift apart, have different interest, different memories, different friends, it leads to nothing good. I did it to be close to her. Maybe I did it becuase I knew if I stayed home, I would feel negative things, feel regretful or jealous or uncomfortable or something, I don't know, it's difficult to explain.

This morning was terrible... I honestly felt like I was dying. It has been a long, long time since I've been hungover beyond just a headache, and this was terrible. I woke up on the couch, freezing, uncomfortable and disoriented. I moved to the bed and rolled around in agony, unable to feel at rest or comfortable. After a long ass time of feeling tortured and insane, I guess I fell back asleep. It wasn't until around 11am or maybe even later that I actually got out of bed.

So there goes my early morning, my early start to my busy day. Bekki made us some of my mushroom soup for lunch with a couple crustini's, and it did help make me feel a bit better, as I really hadn't eaten anything the day before (toast for breakfast and a small omelete at 1:30pm) and beyond those two snacks, I didn't eat all day, drank all night, and then... well, you can imagine. I've felt hungry all day, and I still feel hungry.

After we were up, Bekki cleaned a little bit while I laid in bed trying to feel sane. Once I was up, we were both sitting in the computer room, and I wanted to do something together, so I sat Bekki down and showed her the game Portal... well, I didn't really show her, I just sat her down in front of it and said, "play". That was that, and she ended up playing until like 4pm as I watched. As far as I can tell, she really enjoyed her time, and will continue to play.

At around 4:30pm, we walked to the grocery store and grabbed some things we needed, as it had been about a week or so since we had gone at all, which is longer than I've gone in forever. It kinda sucked going because I was so dehydrated, but we needed the stuff, so it was worth it I suppose.

Since we couldn't watch Game of Thrones last night because we were out, tonight we're having our 'date night', and that'll start in a few minutes. Gonna make some popcorn, turn the light out and enjoy the show. I have school in the morning, so I've got to get up at 6am, and I look forward to a good nights sleep.

Oh yeah, it's worth mentioning that tonight at midnight (well, midnight Blizzard time, so 3am here) Diablo 3 comes out. I've already got the installer downloaded and ready to go, so I just need that switch to flip and I can play!

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