Excessive

Okay so I take back that whole thing I said about feeling like I have more time this week, as I don't. I work tomorrow, and slept away my free time today. That familiar anxious feeling in my stomach is returning and it's making me feel uneasy. I don't want to go to work tomorrow, and I already feel like I have no time to do anything. I know it's silly, especially considering I spent the majority of the evening playing Diablo 3 and listening to the morning stream or music, and I should feel relaxed, but instead I feel like time is flying by and an impending doom is fast approaching.

The Game of Thrones season two finale was last Sunday, and it was extremely satisfying to watch. They finally showed the white walker army, and the effects/animation/whatever for the white walkers was impressive and awesome, and I can't wait for next season, even though it's not going to be until April 2013, which... feels... very far away at this point. This leaves Sunday's open... well, I suppose there is True Blood, but that show is so bad, so terrible that I'm not even 100% sure I want to watch it, but... I probably will end up watching it, mostly because I feel committed to seeing it through. I wanted to watch episodes of Boardwalk Empire in the meantime, to continue to have date nights, but it's no longer on demand, at least not right now, so the only way I could do that is to buy it, and I don't think I want to spend money on that, or anything really.

Since I took a nap today, there is no way that I'm going to be tired tonight, and I'll just have a terrible day tomorrow feeling exhausted and uncomfortable, it's kind of a difficult cycle to break. The difference with tomorrow is that I have to work, sadly. So if I'm dead tired at school, I'll have to go to work, and I'll most likely get a headache. I'm not looking forward to it, especially since I don't know what's going on. I always get like this before I have to work, even days before, I get nervous and anxious and it ruins my days and nights and evenings and baths and all waking life. It's never as bad as my mind makes it out to be, and I get through it and it's fine, but I can't seem to help it, I can't avoid the anxiety, it's just something that happens no matter what. It's so annoying, and an aspect of my life I'm not particularly happy with.

I had a mid-term today in ASP.Net and it didn't go as well as I had hoped. The nature of the class is... read a document with code snippets in it, copy the code and get it working. No lectures, or notes, or textbooks, and yet the test is on technical terms, definitions and shit that we didn't cover in class, so it's just frustrating to sit down and have a bunch of questions on stuff that we weren't actually taught. Ah well, I'll try not to let it get me down.

Tomorrow is an in class assignment in Java, and then after school I have to go right to work (so around 2:30pm) until who knows. Thursday and Friday are school days, but otherwise free, and then work Saturday and Sunday.

I'm going to try and relax now... going to try. Not sure if it will work.

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