April 30, 2015 1:26AM
Eye Glasses
I've been having trouble sleeping lately.
This morning I woke up at 5am in what I could only describe as a fever dream but without the fever. I remember sort of spiraling over the same though, but it wasn't a real.. thought. It was like, replaying the same three seconds of existence over and over, it felt like torture. I had the worst headache, which I had gone to bed with, and now it was stabbing pain up the left side of my skull and straight into my eye.
I stumbled out of bed and took advil, and a drink of water and I think I went right back to the bed, but laying down felt like torture and I couldn't stand it. I tried my best to not go insane but it just hurt so much. I got up at 6am after failing to feel okay, and my morning was unimaginably terrible. I couldn't concentrate, think straight, and didn't feel okay until around 11am.
I recently went to the optometrist to get my eyes checked because about half way through my work day, my eyes would have a hard time focusing on things, and driving home was a pain in the ass because my eyes would shift between focusing on the windshield and the road and it would make it difficult to drive in comfort.
I went and did the tests as best as I could. I got glasses and they don't really help my one bad eye yet, although it seems like they help the focusing issues. The first day I wore them I got the most painful headache and it felt like my one bad eye was going to pop out of my head. I felt so much regret, that I didn't get something that was going to help me, and I felt stupid and embarrased that I somehow failed the eye exam so bad that the doctor perscribed me the wrong glasses or something. I just felt so upset.
I'm tired, frustrated with life, and overwhelmed by everything. I worry about everything all the time and my chest can't take it anymore.
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- I lived in Rodney
- I worked at Vicimus
- I'm married to Bekki
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