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Agh. That's right... Agh. I have a headache. I've had a damn headache for two days now. I'm dizzy, faint, shakey and all around 'bleh' as the kids are saying these days. I guess I can partially blame it all on missing a few pills, and the rest... well, I don't really know. I barely have the energy to do anything, and it sucks to walk, or move etc. So I'm trying to take it easy today.. I'm doing okay.

I had a doctors appointment this morning at 9:20am so I had to get up before my body and mind were ready to do so, and then walk in the cold to the store, buy bus tickets and then hop on a bus to the doctors... and of course I dragged Emily along with me. Early in the morning, when I first got up, I wrote out a list of things I needed to ask the doctor about, and it ended up filling a whole page, but I thought it was neccessary to try to get as much out of the way at once. The funny part was, that we didn't really get through the list... at all. We talked mostly about my pills, the symptoms etc.. I've been on these anti-depressants for two years now and I'm still getting some severe and noticeable side effects, and when I talked to him more about family history, how I feel, and Emily spoke a bit, he decided that Celxia isn't anywhere NEAR the right drug for me and for what I need to help myself. He thought the psychologist who perscribed it to me was an idiot, and so do I.. I've said that all along. I've been on a drug for two years that isn't even that suitable for my condition.. it's just not working well anymore, and I'm always dizzy and stuff.. so I'm slowly getting off of it (doctors orders.. if it were up to me, i'd quit it cold turkey and just go through a few days of severe withdrawl.. it can be refreshingly painful). Once I'm off of it he's going to put me on the deathly Lithium. I'm not sure really what to think at this point, but if he thinks it'll help me and my life, I guess I have to try it... it's really the only option I have.

We also breifly talked about sleeping disorder, migranes, foot problem, Tidus bite and whatever else came up, but we went way over time and I have to make a new appointment for next week, and make it longer. So.. that about sums up the doctor.

When I got home from the Doctors I made: CHILLI! OH SWEET MOTHER OF GOD IT'S SO GOOD! Just ask Emily. Seriously.. ask her. I also cooked Tomatoes. Let's just say, supper kicked some serious ass tonight, and tomorrow will be just as good, and the next day, and the next day.

Linzie was supposed to come over this evening, after she went to the doctors, and she was going to pet Tidus, eat a cookie and take home a container of tomatoes... but earlier in the day, Marle decided to CHEW through the phone cord, so now my phone doesn't work, so when Linzie called, I couldn't say anything or talk to her, and she ended up not coming over... so I'm not sure if she was calling to say she wasn't coming, calling to say she was lost, calling to say she was here... I was worried, so Emily and I walked down Grey to Wellington to look around but couldn't see her, so we went home and ate Chilli.. but I hope she's not mad or anything, cause I didn't plan on Marle biting through the cord.. *grr*

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