Excessive

I'm getting sick of how ignorant everyone around me seems to be. I'm sick of having to explain things, of having to argue with stupidity. People talk about shit they know nothing about, and act as if they are the end all resource for knowledge about everything! When I argue, I do it using facts and things I've read, and for some reason I've read a lot. I constantly browse wikipedia.org for hours on end, reading about everything from drugs to music to video games. I'm just sick of having to put up with stupidity. Also, elitists. fuck you guys. Wake up.. you're a giant problem with this world. ooh, one sec.. gotta poop.

2 minutes later...

Don't like the clothes that I'm wearing, the boots I wear, the nailpolish I have on, the makeup I wear? Keep it to yourself because I don't give a fuck what it is you think about me. Why must everyone be so negative all the time (kinda like I am right now haha)? People are so quick to put others down, say that their way/music/movies/books/ideas are better than everyone elses, and everyone who says otherwise is a loser or some other equally retarded name. Just give it a rest already...

You know, I don't enjoy being negative either... but everyone seems so god damn lost within themselves and their own ideas that there are times where you just have to stop and say shut the fuck up. Bah..

I've gotten my final written warning from Bell and Hydro now.. so I'm just waiting on Rogers! My next paycheque has to go towards rent, so it looks like I'm gonna be without any services for awhile. Oh how I adore the situation I was forced into... *mutters*

Today I was hungry... I had no money and no food. My workfriend Chris helped me buy a bacon cheeseburger from Wendys for lunch and that somehow tided me over for the day... so... thanks for that. The dread I feel towards work still seems to exist... although it's not quite as strong as it was that one morning, I still feel terrified of the idea of taking calls, even though I took calls for HP for so long. Oh well... I'll be forced into it, it'll suck for a few weeks, and then it'll be second nature right? I just want to go back to Stream.

When I got home today, I quickly and apparently out of nowhere decided that I didn't want to be depressed by things directly under my control, so I did a big load of dishes as soon as I got home, and then made something to eat, a salad (with rotten vegetables.. but I have nothing else so what the fuck do you want me to do?) I also had a wonderful scalding bath, with bubbles, facewash, shaving and bodywash. I then watched the daily show, and the tyra show.. and just relaxed a bit. The bath worked, but the watching TV didn't really relax me... it made me feel like time was going to fast and I was running out of time.. .a feeling that was always present during the last few months of my relationship with Linzie... I remember it well.. grr.

Now I have a slight headache, I'm chewing gum to tide over my hunger, and the cats are bugging me because they have no food. Such a sad state of affairs... *laughs insanley* I'm so quickly losing my mind.

Ps. there was more I wanted to say; really, I thought about it on the couch. trust me. it's in here somewhere... but looks like it won't be coming out tonight.

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