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Today Brittany and I played Soul Calibur 2...

..that is all..

this is Taki

It sucks becuase the last one awake each night... my MSN list is vacant or people are set on away, there are no updates on livejournals, Nick is asleep on the couch, Vanessa is sleeping so I can't call her, and my kitties are all asleep in warm places like on coats, in comforters and other various locations. It sucks because I'm in the mood to sociallize... in the mood to talk, to bring things up, to figure things out. I'm just in a mood to write, and not just an entry, but write things, like MSN messeges, and replies to comments on LJ, and just things like that. Oh well, I'll have to wait tomorow for the random updates that will be unleashed from me without mercy.

I've become more and more picky as to what exact mood I'm required to be in before I can actually make myself sit down and write one of these damned entries. From a lot of experiementing, it seems I write the best on Simply Sleep... plain and simple, words come together much naturally when I'm on those... and I never seem to have an ending to my thoughts. Right now I'm struggling with each word as they're being written, and that's no way to write anything. Right now I'm on three immovane, so I'm starting to get pretty groggy... but two wasn't cutting it, so yeah.. the three are somewhat interfering with my creative juices.

Here some some links... some links you should click on daily, if not hourly. Listen, watch and view everything possible. Links go in order of awesomeness.

I won't write much because this is just meant as an update as to what I look like. The first picture there is me without my hair styled at all... in fact I took the picture never ever intending to post it, but I mean... the others were so boring I had to throw something in. The others are after I got up this morning, and I straightened it.

Today I woke up really early for me: 9:30am. Both my alarm went off, and Vanessa called me to wake me up. The majority of the morning was spent getting ready to go out, and waiting for Vanessa to get here. We left for the doctors appointment on the bus at 11:10am.

The smallest things set me off and bring me down, to a point where I don't feel energectic, empathetic and just generally turn completely apathetic about most everything. Things that set me off can be tone of voice, subject matter, random things said to me, pretty much random things I couldn't really predict (of course, there are obvious things that set me off as well). It sucks because sometimes I'm in a great mood and it's just ripped away from me and it's always so difficult to get it back, that it kinda makes me resent the fact it was taken so easily.

First of all I'd just like to quickly complain about the continued shittyness that is MSN Messenger, and how it keeps getting shittier and shittier as the versions are released. Not only is it now horribly slow, a resource hog, and bogged down with tons of features no one even knows are there, let alone uses, but now it likes to constantly sign me out at random times, for no reason at all. Sometimes it'd be right in the middle of me typing to someone, so all I hear is a nice long string of beeps as it won't let me type because it signed me out, but since the messenger is so slow and resource intensive, the screen isn't updated with the fact it's signed out until after I've written the paragraph and lost it forever. It's such a peice of shit now, and kind of sad that's the best instant messenger around... oh well, perhaps the random signing out thing is a network problem on their side and it'll be fixed... it's only one of many problems, but it's probably the most annoying and noticeable. So.. basically the point of this paragraph was a quick FUCK MSN MESSENGER IN ITS SOFTWARE ASS.