Excessive

I'm just about done with the website redesign, I'm thinking of changing the page so it uses the new design. There are a few things like, most important is adding in a way for users to change their password and set their avatar. Besides that, I've think I've done a good job thinking of everything, but I'll have to really give it some final thought.

Why do I feel so completely useless? What is so different between yesterday and today? Why did I feel so calm and relaxed and actually good yesterday, and here I am today with a chance to relax and I feel terrible? My heart is pounding and I can't focus and it's so unenjoyable.

I wish I knew why I had to suffer through this. Why I have some free time but waste it worrying and feeling like crap. I watched a movie, and worked on some website stuff, and did a homework assignment... I've accomplished things, but I can't relax. I feel like I'm doing something wrong...

Today was both good and bad, good in the sense that everything at work went well, bad in the sense that I was really tired and blerh. Julie drove me home after we kind of snuck out early, but not too early, 2:30pm, and once I got home I had a nice, hot shower as I cooked my microwaveable lasagna, ate that while I watched SNL, and then napped on the couch for three hours.

Today kind of flew by... uh... it didn't help that I woke up at like 1:30pm, after sleeping for hours and hours. Only gave me an hour or so to get ready and leave for work.

I feel sick.

I didn't feel sick earlier.

Yeah, so right now I'm working on creating a new, more organized database, and what this means, is that these entries are only being updated into one of the databases... the new one, so the legacy site will not reflect new updates until I implement it (which I've decided to do).

I have this problem where I can't lay and try to fall asleep if I'm hungry, even a little bit. I need to go to bed feeling full, or I'll just think about I'm hungry non-stop and can never rest my mind. That's why I'm up still, writing this, because I was hungry. Also, I went from doing non-stop school work for 6 hours into trying to sleep and I didn't have any time to wind down or relax. I didn't even have a chance to watch tv or play a game.

I've been feeling completely shitty for longer than I thought, you kind of lose track. I'm feeling really.. uhh. social right now. It's weird, but not bad I guess.

I got home from work around 9:30 I guess, once I got home, I made some bruschetta since I had some really nice looking tomatoes out on top of the fridge (I like my bruschetta at room tempurature). I could've had microwavable lasagna, but went for the fresh, lighter option.

I'm kind of bored, but this is a typical night and I probably shouldn't feel bored. I just watched a movie, The Hangover, and now I'm watching Jimmy Fallon.