Excessive

I had a test this morning in Web Design, which was a six question short answer online quiz, which we only had to answer four from, and then we were given a really bad website and told to create a better, new layout with a few requirements, which was generally very easy, and didn't really require much thought or energy.

It happens from time to time, it's hard to recognize maybe, sometimes I just think it's because I'm feeling depressed but maybe getting writers block is unrelated to moods, maybe it just comes naturally. I've been having trouble doing a lot of creative things, I've also felt very depressed and down, lazy, slow, unsocial, etc. These are things I seem to write about every other week, keeps creeping back into writing year after year.

I haven't really been able to write lately, I'm not sure why, but, I don't feel very good about it. This week has been less then spectacular, and I feel a weight upon my chest that seems all too familiar.

I'm over tired, on a sleeping pill and just watched Hot Tub Time Machine. It's time for bed now, and I would like to write amore substantial entry tomorrow.

I also would like to continue working on remaking the front end of this website! It get can frustrating though, trying to make it exactly how I want it.

I had to make a website for a school project. I just made a website about the various programming projects I've worked on.

http://www.exrambling.net/school/Project1/

Alright, I've stayed up too late, and I really need to be up by 10am tomorrow, so, I should go to sleep now.

I've been trying to brain storm on a specific SQL function I've been trying to write but I'm so tired now I can barely think.

Why do I always have to feel like the one that's trapped? Why do I have to feel uncomfortable? Why do I feel nervous about tomorrow, why do I feel like cutting myself. Why do I worry so much? Why?

I slept in really late today... later than I probably would've liked to ideally. Kind of feels like a completely wasted day, but it felt good to sleep that much so it's kind of an interesting trade off. I do end up feeling regretful and annoyed when it gets late and I have to go to bed. Here it is 12:22am, I have to wake up in 6 hours, and yet I'm wide awake and no where near wanting to go to bed.

Had a pretty good day, although I slept in quite late, and had a really difficult time waking up, and the first thing I always think is, "I don't have to go to school today..." but I fought it today, as much as I didn't want to, I got up, and had an hour to get ready and leave (yes that's right, I got up at 12:55pm). I stayed up way too late last night, I was almost awake for 22 hours, so that's why I slept so late.

I'm tired and kind of super surprised I'm still awake, and kind of scared as to what that means. Daylight savings time started this morning, and that's just complete bullcrap, because I lost an hour of sleep. I woke up at 6:15am, after about 4.5 hours of sleep, and I didn't feel too tired, I just had breakfast and grabbed my cab.