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I feel nervous... like anxious. Like the world is going to end. I get like this sometimes, and I know that there is no reason for it, and yet even knowing that, I can't stop myself from feeling horribly nervous. I shake, I can't stop shaking and I can't think or concentrate and I don't want to sleep because it seems scary and I don't want time to move and... well, to be honest I've been writing these same feelings for years now. I guess I just wanted to complain a bit...

I had a lot of thoughts I wanted to get out today, but to be honest I don't see anything good coming from it, so what's the point. It's best not to focus on things that are depressing or upsetting, and it's good to try and just be ignorant to everything, just try to lose yourself in the business of everyday life.

I'm never in a good mood and it's really starting to affect my day to day life, it's really causing me to be unhappy most of the time.

Bah.. I should go to sleep soon, but like I said, I have this crazy fear of sleep at the moment so I'll probably stay up later than I should and be tired tomorrow at work, but what else is new.

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