Excessive

Alright, so things haven't been going as smoothly as I had hoped for. On the first day of school, after my break, I had my second class, and when I opened my laptop, I noticed all the colors were messed up. White's had interlaced light blue vertical lines through them, blacks had swirling, fuzzy red dots in them, and everything was off. I had to contact HP support via live chat, and he instructed me to strongly press up and down on the lcd panel, which after trying, turned the screen black for a second, and then the colors came back normal. Problem solved.

I spent the rest of the evening playing StarCraft 2 with Ben and so on, normal activities.

Today, first and only class, 8am in the morning, I open up the laptop and there is no display. Nothing shows up on the screen. I know it's working because it lets me log in with my fingerprint and makes sounds, but no display. So I couldn't do the in class work, I couldn't follow along with the slides and I was pretty stressed and pissed off. I was supposed to go out shopping with my Mom after school, but instead went home to contact HP again. I had hooked the laptop up to the TV right before contacting them and it displayed fine, so I knew it wasn't a software issue.

Essentially, I need to send in my laptop for repair, which means I'll be without my laptop for about two weeks of school (7-9 business days). This is exactly what contributed to the downfall of my first college experience. How fucked up is it that it's all happening again? It's just so beyond weird and stupid.

Anyway, my Mom and I brain stormed a bit of ways to not get screwed over by this situation. She was in the market for a new computer, in fact that was one of our planned stops that day, to go buy her a computer, so after talking about it, we figured that since she wanted a laptop anyway, if she were to buy a laptop today, I could borrow it for the time I don't have my own, and then give it back to her once things are settled, and that way I don't lose out on anything.

I feel guilty about it to be honest, I think it's really shitty that she doesn't get to have the excitement of taking home a new computer, and that it's just being taken by me. Anyway, I set it up with everything I need for school already, so I'm pretty set I think.

I also bought some clothes, some groceries, and a new razor.

Overall, I feel stressed out, nervous, sick, and I have a bad headache, I'm also really tired, and sick of dealing with endless little things popping up that are problems. Why can't shit just go smooth as silk, no problems, easy stuff, so I could just focus on school, instead of focusing on everything BUT school.

So because of the chaos of today, I'm disorganized. I didn't have time to make my lunch, I didn't have time to plan my breakfast, I didn't have time to grab my shopping list, I'm behind now, I feel disorganized, I feel a mess, I don't feel good about any of this anymore.

Maybe.. JUST maybe, tomorrow will go 100% smooth and fine, and I will come home and feel okay, and satisfied.

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