Excessive

I can't sleep, but I haven't really tried, so I can't really complain. I stayed up late, and when it was getting late, around 2:30 or 3:00am, instead of winding down and heading to bed, I sat down and watched Jackass 2.5, which is a collection of interviews and skits that were cut from Jackass 2. I don't know why I like those guys so much, it's really unlike me, but I do, love them.

I'm actually laying in bed right now listening to the album Nebraska by Bruce Springsteen... I can hear raindrops, I can see Tidus sleeping beside me, I have lots of blankets on me so I feel heavy, and I have a heater beside me set to high so it warms the room, I feel pretty comfortable.

I've continued having a rough time lately, but I can't do anything but be hopeful and look to the future. I don't have a creative outlet at the moment and it's driving me crazy, but I can't force something, that stuff just has to happen on it's own. I thought redesigning my website was something I wanted to do, but when it was all done, I still like the old layout better, and will probably change it back. The issues I have with the old layout, is the actual code, not the look. It's really poorly written and designed, sloppy code, larger than it should be. Fixing the code but not breaking the site is a really big challenge.

I'd like to write a program in Java that can access my database, and download my entries, and then have them readable and editable offline for viewing, printing, saving etc. I think that'd be cool. No real use for it though...

Maybe tomorrow will be a good day... maybe something will be terribly different and I will feel different and I will be happy.

Maybe sometime soon I can sleep.

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