Excessive

For some reason, this week went blindingly fast. It's hard to believe it's already been a week since my drunken adventure at Virus, throwing up everywhere and punching Mark. It feels like yesterday I was at All Request Geoff night, listening to Head Over Heels, or watching Thor rock out while holding up a predator head. Where doe the time go...

I've been meaning to write about the Thor/Goat Horn show, but it took me ahwile to write the previous entry about Sunday, so I just never really got around to it, and like I said, time has just been flying by, and I didn't realize it's almost been a week since thw show occured.

Michelle and I went alone, because Mark was poor and at work, and I hadn't heard anything from Linzie, so when we got there I said hey to Matt and went downstairs and took a seat with Ally, who was there already. We basically chillaxed the whole night... I had about four beers in total that night, one from Sarah (aww, thanks Sarah), two from Michelle (aww, thanks Michelle) and one on the house (yes, I'm THAT attractive). I saw a few people I knew... Sat around with Teresa for a bit, said hi to Andrea, hugged Madison in spite of Jenny (haha FUCK YOU!), hugged both Kurt and Dave before I left... and then found out I wasn't allowed to leave. All the bands had played except Goat Horn, which were okay for metal standards (haha), but they're set was going on quite awhile and I was wanting to go home, so I went around saying goodbye to everyone, giving hugs etc. and when I went upstairs, I saw Geoff so I went and said goodbye to him, to which he replied with, "you aren't leaving.", to which I said, "haha, I'm tired and I have to work tomorrow." to which he replied, "i'm putting on more party metal and you're staying!" at which point he pushed me down the stairs and back into the bar. So I stayed for about a half hour longer, listening to Goat Horn, until I finally left, and went home. Over all it was an enjoyable show... lots of fun metal, Them's Fightin Words were actually really good, and Thor was fun as hell. Goat Horn and How Dare You were both kinda boring, and I was upstairs outside for all of Ground Level. It was worth the five bucks for sure. Oh yes! Also, they had a little contest... trivia contest that night, and the question was what does Ronny James Dio and Ozzy Osbourn have in common. Thank god I listen to Tenacious D... I ran up into the booth before Geoff even finished the question and yelled, "BLACK SABBATH!" and he handed over to me a $40 gift certificate to Addictive Tattoos. Woo! Next Wedensday Mark and I are going. Mark is getting a mystery tattoo (but I know what it is) and I'm getting a kitty paw on my wrist.

Tuesday is honestly a blur... you see I decided to start taking both of my medications again regularly and on schedual, and it's seriously fucking with my head in such a way that I don't even feel real. Not neccessarily in a bad way mind you, but it's fucking strange. All I remember about Tuesday was going to All Request Geoff night, being way too tired to enjoy anything, except giving my Tears For Fears record to Geoff and him playing me Head Over Heels, but the rest is a mystery... something about university books, big mac meal... i dunno.

I basically remember two parts of Wednesday... before dissent and after dissent. Before dissent I spent the entire day cleaning my living room, bathroom and kitchen, with the help of Michelle of course. It's amazing now... clean, dust free, dirt free and so on. The kitty litter doesn't stink, there are no gross dishes, and I even managed to do two loads of laundry and also got a few groceries thanks to Mom; it really felt like a turning point for my life to be honest... now I have just to get rid of this debt thats following me around and maybe, just maybe, I can feel good about myself. It's a very strange concept, as I haven't felt safe or secure since... well, I'm sure everyone knows... but I want to feel it again, but not through someone else, but through myself. That evening, Michelle, Mark, Anne, Linzie and myself went to the dissent for punk/psychobilly night. I, again, was out of it, and tired and not really responding to anything, so then night didn't last long, since I wasn't drinking, and punk night is my least favorite night there, I wasn't really in the mood to stick around. Linzie took off without telling anyone, Michelle and Anne took the last bus home and Mark and I wanted to go home, so I told Cam, Geoff and Matt to tell Linzie where I went and off to home I went. I spent the rest of the night relaxing with a game, and probably a bowl of chips until Linzie arrived, and that's where I kinda blank out for that night.

Yesterday was the first day in around 17 or 18 days I haven't gone to the dissent. 18 days in a god damn row, I've gone there. That's nuts; unhealthy even! I blame it on being friends with the employees, not my drinking problem haha. I spent the day playing games (Double Dash, Makai Kingdom and others) and just overall chillaxing. Michelle came over after a bit and then we proceeded to chillax together, and overall a completley uneventful day.

Today I don't quite feel real for some reason... like I'm a head floating above a body. Make sense? NAH! I'm hungry and thirsty and annoyed that stupid blond hair cock smoker is gonna be there tonight. I don't have a crush any more, as that died out rather quickly... I have a hard time finding things to like about people. I'll write more later perhaps, but for now, I'm going to go send out a modem. Why? because HP uses horrible parts in their machines that need replacing at least twice a year. Woo to anyone who buys HP!

Have a good rest of the day people.

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