Excessive

Today has been kind of odd, not that great really. I've felt tired all day, no energy, I've barely been able to get myself to stand up, I've felt numb and apathetic. I haven't had an apetite, and I've little interest in anything.

I woke up really early, at 7:45am, and have had two naps through the day. When I awoke, I moved to the couch and watched The Shield season three, I guess I was interested in watching it, because it seemed preferable to going back to sleep. I didn't take a sleeping pill the night before, which would probably be why I woke so early and didn't feel like I could go back to sleep. I figured it was worth a try, not to take a pill, and I guess that's what I get for it.

For pretty much the entire day I've alternated between watching episodes of The Shield, playing Uncharted 2 and playing Phantom Brave.

For lunch I had a chicken caesar and watched Game of Thrones, which was good.

At around 2pm, Kyle came over and we drove to Fanshawe, where he paid tution and got his student card, and I replaced my missing student card and bus pass.

Afterward, I continued sitting on the couch, alternate between the activities I mentioned previously.

Later on, I was having trouble feeling comfortable, as I was tired and just generally not feeling great, so I laid down and had a nap listening to the morning stream.

I got up probably an hour later, made a microwavable lasagna, and watched another episode of the Shield. Once I was done that, I ran a bath, even though it was early, I just didn't feel like continuing my god awful numbness and alternating between activities.

Once out of my bath, I felt terrible, and felt like writing, felt like trying to... do something. I put on Romeo + Juliet, and wrote a little bit. I don't know if I feel better, but at least I did something, or tried something. I'm hungry again, and it's annoying me.

Tomorrow my Mom and Sister are coming over for dinner to celebrate my birthday, and that was kind of always planned, but with how I'm feeling, I really don't feel up to it, but, I'll do what I have to. I need to go to the store to buy all the food neccessary, and make sure my place is organized and clean. It will require me to have energy and happiness... I can't do those things feeling the way I'm feeling.

Maybe I'll wake up tomorrow and my brain will magically fix itself.

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