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I've been having minor tooth aches for the last week... nothing too bad, just took an advil and it was fine. Usually these things pass after a little while, usually I assume I bit down on something too hard or wrong.

This one wasn't getting better, it was getting worse. I actually woke up during the night because it was so bad two days ago, but by morning it had gone and it was nice to have the relief. Throughout the day is slowly came back and by about 8pm last night it was so intense that I wanted to die.

I tried to sleep through it, I took sleeping pills, I smoked a bunch of pot, I tried everything to pass out, but it was too intense. I rolled around in agony, constantly grabbing the pillow, kicking my legs... it hurts so much.

I called the dentist as soon as they opened at 8am and made an appointment, 2pm.. going in. Right now the pain has somewhat steadied out, it's not this constant thing, feels like a lot of pressure, I can feel my heart beat in my jaw, and it hurts like a mother fucker.

I'm pretty scared to go to the dentist, but this pain... this pain is a pretty good motivator to face your fears. Julie is leaving work to come drive me to my appointment, which is super nice. I was going to take a cab but I realized I don't really have any cash somehow..

I want them to just pull out the tooth, I just want relief! AH!

Edit -- Update ----@ 3:45pm

So I need a route canal but can't get an appointment for one until Dec 1st. I decided to spend the $1000 on the root canal because a) I want to be able to chew normally on both sides of my mouth, something that I've actually not been able to do for different reasons for significant portions of my life. b) Fanshawe covers some of the cost. c) Um, i think I had something to put here.

Anyway, he prescribed me anti-biotics, which should ease some of the pain and pressure, which will be taken for a week. He also prescribed me Tylenol 3s, which will please for the love of god ease the pain significantly while the anti-biotics work. So I go to the pharmacy, which in itself is quite uncomfortable. As I walk, my heart beats harder and I can feel my jaw throbbing intensely, creating pain and discomfort. So I walk over to the pharmacy, hand in my paper, and I'm told that I can't pick it up without my photo health card, which I explain I don't have. I do have my Fanshawe student id that has a photo, and my credit card and birth certificate, and insurance card, but no, those aren't good enough. I have to go home, get my non-photo health card, bring it to them and they will compare it to my fanshawe photo.... ugh. So now I walk around the parking lot like a fucking idiot looking for an ATM so I can cab home, but like I said, walking is really fucking shitty, and I'm feeling kind of out of it and disoriented. I finally stumble up to a gas station, get money and call a cab.

So now I'm home, with no medication, starving, getting a big headache, pissed off and in pain, and I have to go back out to get pills that will hopefully make me feel better. I honestly hope it fixes almost all the pain, or that the T3s do anyway... I can't concentrate, feel comfortable, relax, or do anything phyiscal while feeling like this. This is a disaster, a nightmare, terrible... my place is a mess, I have no more kitty litter, no food, even if I did have food I couldn't eat it... ugh. Shoot me in the face please.

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