Excessive

Maybe you should just let it go now. Why do you keep coming?

Let's see if anything happens here.

Today could've been better... it was quite a step down from the previous days, as I've pointed out in the stuff I wrote earlier. I've spent the day feeling kinda of sick, kind of tired, kind of out of it. My mind is deteriorating a bit, due to whatever.

I walked to the grocery store around 1:30pm or so, right after the snowstorm died down a bit. I just wanted to restock on snack food and make sure I had something for dinner, so I grabbed what I needed, including more ingredients for soup, and walked home.

I tried to enjoy my afternoon but I was distracted by feeling sick, the standard combination of headache, dizziness, nausea, and on top of all that I was also distracted by negative thoughts and feelings that were creeping back in to my mind. It's easy to slip and fall into a negative place, a spiraling, unending circle of over thinking and over analyzing things. Sometimes it feels good to do that, like it's necessary or for my own good, and other times I can really see how self destructive it is.

I ended up laying down for a nap around 5pm because of how sick I was feeling. Dealing with the fact that my 360 disc tray is acting up (as in I can eventually get it to read a disc but not after fucking around with it for ten minutes) and my general feeling of sickness lead me to feel restless and uncomfortable, and I didn't think I was tired, but I laid down with a podcast on and fell asleep instantly. I slept through the alarm but got up around 6:30pm, made dinner right away (beef tenderloin) and watched some TV while I ate.

I played Assassin's Creed 2 for quite awhile afterward, and then ran a bath. After my bath, I played some Burnout Revenge and eventually put on Training Day on bluray, while I started to write this and have a snack.

Tomorrow I work from 12pm to 8pm, and it's two buffets, so should be easy. I'd write more but I'm empty.

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