Excessive

Today was not much different than the day before, school was tolerable but overall boring, and the second half of the day left me feeling uninspired and unenergized and lethargic. I didn't accomplish much, nor did I feel good about anything I was doing, and overall it left a bad taste in my mouth.

We managed to make it through almost all of our longest school day - From 8am to 3pm is when we are supposed to be there, but half way through our last class, a three hour marathon of GUI Development, we were so unbelievably bored, the second the professor left the room on break, we packed up and got the fuck out of there.

The discomfort I feel when I sit at home not quite feeling like myself comes from the fact that I know what it feels like to be at home and to feel relaxed and enjoy myself playing games and reading and cleaning and organizing, and sitting and feeling uncomfortable and useless is that much more painful. Doing the same things, but getting completely different results, this is what upsets me. I come home, make lunch, clean up, play a game, and sometimes I feel amazing and it is so relaxing and rewarding, and other times I feel restless, useless, annoyed and low. I wish I could pinpoint the causes and I know that a lot of it random, or probably is random, but still... I want consistency, routine... just... no more ups and downs. Ah well, things as a whole have been great, and I don't talk about it enough, and only focus on the negative, but I really shouldn't be complaining. I will try to write a more positive entry tomorrow.

The evening was nice... after Bekki got home from work, I had a bath, Bekki had a shower, and then we had a date. We watched Zookeeper, which was a family comedy, and it was pretty good, pretty funny. Nothing too complicated or anything you had to think about, but it was light hearted and fun, so it's exactly what I had wanted it to be.

Tomorrow I have school at 12pm, so I get to sleep in for the first time this week (define sleep in...). I have school until 3pm, and so I should be home around 4pm, and I can have dinner and another date with Bekki. I'm predicting a nice evening. I then have the weekend to look forward to... Saturday opening, and Sunday is Mother's Day brunch, so that'll most likely be a nightmare.

I'm gonna go read in bed now, cause... that seems like a good time.

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