Excessive

I regret not using my time more wisely today, I feel as though I've wasted a precious day off, which makes my stomach drop and weighs my chest down. I was up, woken by an alarm, I made breakfast for Bekki, she left for work, and I stayed up for a bit.

I did the dishes, and cleaned up a little bit, made some lunch and watched an episode of Doctor Who, but fell asleep face down on the couch somehow, as I don't really remember laying down or anything, but I slept all the way until Bekki got home from work at around 3:45pm or so, which I immediately felt bummed out about.

I got up and finished the cleaning I had intended to do hours earlier, and made dinner. We sat and ate, watching Saturday Night Live. After dinner we wanted to do something special, so we decided to go to the movies. I had recently watched a commercial for Sinister, a horror movie staring Ethan Hawk, so we found out when it was playing and left right away to go to Silver City.

The movie ended up being terrible... like, actually really, really bad. It lacked any meaningful story, characters, or even scares. There was no plot, no motives, nothing of value. I would suggest everyone avoid the movie at all costs, as nothing of redeemable value was offered in those two hours.

After the movie, we went over to Chapters, each got a book cause it's what we do, and then came home.

I had a bath, and now I'm writing and watching Doctor Who. I've got to get tired so I can go to bed, but I'm assuming it's because of my nap but I'm not tired at all. It's already 11:15pm, and I'm wide awake. I have to open tomorrow at work, so that's a wake up time of 5am.

I've entered the second week of no coffee and I figured it would have some kind of effect on my sleep, but I still need pills sometimes, and still don't get tired at night, so it's not making as big of difference as I had hoped. I'd still like to continue the experiment, but it's getting more and more difficult to justify. Do I cut out all caffeine? Quit drinking Coke all together? I don't know to be honest, to I eliminate certain comforts to unknown results?

I'm going to try and relax and get ready for bed. I don't particularly want to go to work tomorrow, but that feeling never quite goes away does it? I feel nervous and uneasy, and I just wish I could sleep and read and... be content.

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