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Work is stressful, money is stressful, moving is stressful. I am stressed out, to say the least.

Bekki and I applied to a townhouse rental last night, and generally speaking it made that half of the day very stressful. Unexpected costs, spur of the moment choices, it was a lot to take in such a short period of time. I feel as though I've personally calmed down a bit and I feel okay about it all now... I am a bit scared, but I feel as though I'd be scared regardless of anything. I've run the numbers many times, I've made complex budget spreadsheets, and we make more than enough money to live at this new place, and live exactly as we are now (as far as food, going out for fun, buying books or seeing movies, etc). While I'm in school, it will be a bit tighter, but I mean, it's just... whatever, you just make it work, you just do what you gotta do.

Thinking of the increased space, the multiple floors, rooms, places to be, how much 'home'ier it will feel in there... room for the cats to run around, to be seperate... a dining room to eat in instead of sitting on the floor in the living room. Not having the kitty litter in the kitchen, but in the basement. Not having to worry as much about sound, either making it or hearing it... there are countless benefits.

There is always the chance, and maybe a good chance, that we won't get the place, and I need to prepare myself for that, but it's hard to. It's hard not to make plans, and think good things, but I know it's silly to do that... gotta calm down and just get my mind off it.

Work was okay today, although the shifts are long, and I never quite get the feeling that the things that I accomplish are appreciated or... I don't know... I don't want to brag or anything like that, but I accomplish a fuck load when I'm there, and I do it fast, and I get a ton of shit done... but I'm always made to feel like it's no where near enough, and I hate that feeling. Ah well... as long as I get paid I guess I don't give a fuck.

I work tomorrow from 7 to 3, a normal Sunday really. Not that busy of a brunch, no events besides a very late small reception that I'm not really doing, and I have the day to replenish brunch and prep for Monday, and then I have Monday off, which always makes the day go by a bit easier.

I'm going to watch the rest of SNL that I recorded last week, and then read in bed until I'm super sleepy. Oh, and I've been playing Torchlight 2 when I can, listening to Grey Kingdom and Sparta a lot, and reading Under Wildwood: Wildwood 2, having just recently finished Tony Danza's book. That's it!

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