October 13, 2002 4:41AM
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Yesterday night I wrote in my personal journal (one I write for myself not for you freaks) but it turned out to be not personal at all and pretty much what I would have wrote here if I DID write something so I'm just gonna write up what I wrote last night for you're viewing pleasure. Ooh change of plans fans I just read over it and I guess it JUST pasts the line for too personal sorry to get your hopes up. I'll just write about yesterday for you folks (that's right kids I AM usefull).
Yesterday I went to see Alexis On Fire Hopesfall Blue Skies At War and Shotgun Rules at the Embassy at 8pm. I don't really remember the day at all... oh yeah it's kinda coming back to me. I remember at one point I got really really depressed.. for about three hours or so. Okay so with this concert coming up and me knowing about it for a long time I had been trying to save as much change and money as I possibly could so I could afford a Alexis On Fire zip up sweatshirt. I don't know why but I just set my mind to it and got really excited and looked forward to it.. a lot. So anyway the day before the concert I had managed to save $15 but the cover was $10.. so that left me with $5 and most often sweatshirts are $40.. so okay I was a little disappointed but I figured I could ask Ben for money because well.. it's Ben and he'd always give me money if I really needed it so I asked him and he (nicely and awesomely) lended me $10 which brought my sum total up to $15 (for you dumb people out there *points at you all*) which was obviously still low. So I built up my courage and asked my Mom for a little bit of money I didn't specify an amount but in an email I said nothing more than a $20.. actually I did specify an amount I said whatevers left from this weeks grocery money (I looked before hand and there was $15 left in the cup) but anyway... when I asked her she went on and on about how I do nothing and I'm lazy and I don't deserve anything and well let's just say it sent me from being in an amazing excited mood into feeling worthless suicidal and hate filled. I just went downstairs and stood on the brink of crying. For some reason everything that comes out of her mouth puts me down. Everything. So I spent the afternoon at school holding in tears and feeling like complete shit but once I got to Writers Craft near the end Tim made me feel better by just talking to him and laughing at shit. I was mostly fine after that although I had a few mood swings while at home.
We met Ally Owen Ben and Ian at the busstop at Argyle and went downtown to the Embassy and attended the concert. yay for us! I'll skip the details (other than.. We ran into Holly *waves to Holly* sup D-Man?!) but Alexis on Fire kicked ass once again. I love their shows just because they're so intense and they're just one of those bands that puts their whole heart into their writing and performing. I bought a shirt (it has ALEXISONFIRE on the front and a backwards gun on the back) and strangely they were only $15... I was just meant to have a shirt!! A few times during the concert Linzie left to go be with her friends ( I think I counted 5 but it really doesn't matter) and that triggered mood swings where I felt pretty abandonded.. I dunno why it doesn't really have much to do with her actually going to be with her friends it was just something small my mind was looking for to have an exuse to suck ass.
After the show I went home. That's all I remember.
So that was yesterday Today was amazing! Linzie and I spent the entire day together.. there was just something different (a good different) about it. I think it had something to do with my Mom moving the furnature around.. everything just seemed to different like everything was new again and Linzie and I had tons of fun. (15 times maybe?)
At one point I went to go get some chips and I jumped up on a chair and I fell right off it turned in mid air took a chunk out of my shin on the corner of the desk and then landed right on my tail bone. It hurt so much I couldn't move or breath and I wasn't sure if I was going to be able to get up or walk or anything. I just remember concentrating on the fact that the pain was going to go away so I just kept breathing and waited for the pain to go away. Once it was pretty much gone I had some Coke. Then I got up. It's kinda hard to walk correctly.. constant pain but I think I can manage. It didn't stop me from acting normally all night so I don't see it as a problem other than the pain of course... but I guess I'm used to pain! HAH! (*lowers head in shame*.. fuck you too.
Ben and I played our first games of War3 in a long long time and with all the new patch changes the game is so different and I don't like it as much but oh well I guess I'll get used to it right?
Stayed up most of the night with Ben playing laughing at Bell Labs Sounds Tenacious D and various other humorous things.. and then he went to bed like a fairy boy.. and then I started writing this because I wanted to talk about Alexis on Fire and shizat.
Lately I've been listening to Coldplay MSI At The Drive-In and just randomly selected songs. I guess I'm going through a transition period of when I'm between 'bands'.
I guess that's it for today. At the current moment I'm borderline happy very very content. Tomorrow's gonna be strange.. I just hope to god I don't get hit by a mood swing when everyones here (you'll find out tomorrow fans!).
Goodnight you.. bastards?!
Oh and ... you're all fucked in the cock!!
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- I lived with my Mom
- I was with Linzie
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