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I ruined today, and I feel great regret for that. I didn't do anything on my list of things I wanted to do, I didn't eat lunch because I lost myself in my head, I got a headache, I can't stop worrying about random things.

I'd like to aplogize to Bekki for being just a wretched piece of shit for the entire day, and ruining a possibly nice day we could've had together. I wanted to cut my hair, shave, make soup, make tomatoes, have a nice lunch, and many other things.

We did go and look at a few townhouses and found one we really liked. It kind of took our breath away how (almost) perfect it was for what we were looking for. The only downside is the smaller kitchen, but it has laundry, a basement, an upstairs, a backyard, a dining room where we could actually have a place to eat besides the coffee table. We haven't 100% made up our minds, but I'd say probably 95% made up our mind about it. We just need to ensure that our new king bed will fit comfortably in the master bedroom, and that our computer desk will fit, the bathtub is in good repair, and the taps have good knobs.

It was a tiring, anxiety filled day, and I'm not looking forward to going to work tomorrow. I want to feel confident and relaxed and comfortable... Maybe I'll find that soon.

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