Excessive

I'm not feeling very relaxed, and it's my day off. I feel ripped off, and I know that really isn't much I can do about it. When I sit down to play the banjo, I feel antsy; when I sit down to play a game, I feel distracted. When I sit down to read my book (The Ocean At The End of the Lane), I feel rushed or like I shouldn't be doing it. I didn't really feel like this earlier but it's getting worse as I finish the stuff I had originally planned. I programmed, and went grocery shopping, finished my goals for programming, and then made dinner, but that's kind of when it all fell apart.

I'm not sure why it went this way, or really what steps I can take to avoid it from happening tomorrow, but I'll do the things that have helped in the past, like making lists, and trying my best to stay positive.

I have a duck stock on the stove to continue simmering over night, and tomorrow I'm going to turn it into a stew. Yeah... not much to talk about there.

Sleeping pills and darkness seem like a good direction to head tonight.

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