Excessive

I drank more than I wanted to last night. It was the staff party, and I almost didn't want to go, and wasn't in the greatest mood. We went with the plan of only spending the $20 we got back from getting in (ticket refund) and that would be that. I wanted to leave early, and you know, just... be normal. I was super nervous going, and didn't feel good, the entire thing felt wrong.

My plan backfired because they put open bottles of wine on every table, so we could just refill our glasses whenever we wanted, so I ended up drinking quite a few glasses without spending any money, and I just can't seem to control myself, and I've made a decision to not really drink in public anymore. I don't like what it does to me, or how I act, or how I feel after it's over. It never, ever ends well. I like to drink a couple glasses of wine at home with dinner and feel a little tipsy but I'm safe at home surrounded by loved ones and I think that's the only way I can do it.

Today has been tough because I'm slightly hung over. I have a headache and have felt shaky and weak all day, and I had to work at 10am (even though I book the day off over a month ago). I've been hungry, my throat is sore and I just haven't felt good.

I work tomorrow at 6am, and then I have a couple days off. I am looking forward to that time.

I'm going to sleep soon, and maybe I'll wake up feeling better.

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