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My birthday is over and it was a mixed day, but Bekki made it great for me, and I couldn't really ask for more.

The first half of the day was quite terrible. I suppose this will be my last entry about Windermere, and it's too bad it has to be a negative one, as they so often seem to be. I was scheduled alone and shouldn't have been. I had 82 hotel guests to feed in the hotel, most of which ordered hot food off the menu, which meant for the most part I was stuck on the line cooking food. The buffer portion of the breakfast ran out but there was no one to prep the food or do anything, so I ran out of nearly everything, and had no way of making more while cooking orders. I also had a banquet hot breakfast, that required me to make pancakes (time consuming), as well as meat, scrambled eggs, home fries, and so on, which went out in the middle of the busy cafe time, so that was fun. I was also responsible for making all of the sandwiches for the CVG, warming a soup, chili, and making salads, which is extremely time consuming. Another responsibilty was to set up the pasta bar and warm the sauces. On top of those things, I also had a lunch at 11:20am for 40 people, which had a lot left to do for it. I could maybe do two or three of those things successfully, not all seven hundred. I text Shawn to come in earlier, but the damage was already done. Our lunch went out late, the pasta bar went out late, the CVG stuff went down late, the Sysco order sat out forever and the produce order didn't get put away until after 12pm.

This is pretty much what I would describe as the worst case scenario. If you had asked me what my nightmare day of working at Windermere would be like, this day would be my answer. It was not how I wanted to spend my last day at work, and it's not how I wanted to remember my experiences near the end. My last couple hours there were playing catch up, cleaning up, and resetting breakfast, and running back and forth between the kitchens cooking pasta bars for people who don't have any idea what good food is. There is a good chance that if you are eating food from something that ends in ".. Bar" it's not good food.

Shawn had to leave to put in an order and then go to a meeting, so I said goodbye with a hug about a half hour before the end of my shift, and as I signed out, I said goodbye to a couple people, and it left me feeling very odd. To be honest I think I'm a kind of psychopath. The only emotions I feel are anger and anxiety. I tend to alternate between them. Today, as I put my shit in my locker and walked up the stairs for my last time, I felt something like sadness. Walking to the bus, waiting for the bus, I think I felt sad. No tears or anything, but it left me feeling very uneasy.

After a bus ride home, I entered my home to see my dining room decorated with birthday balloons and steamers, with wine and a card on the table. I couldn't help but laugh to myself in joy at the effort and thought that went into the surprise. It was completely unexpected. In all honesty, I expected to come home, put the dinner in the oven, maybe do the dishes, read some things on the internet, and Bekki would come home and give me a card. It was really nice, and really helped make my day feel special. My gift is a weekend stay at the Shaw Club and Hotel in Niagara-on-the-Lake, which is where we stayed on our anniversary. I'm excited to go back and look forward to it.

We had cannelloni for dinner, with garlic baguette, and then went for blizzards (after stopping at Walmart for random things), which we brought home and ate with Lost.

After dinner, I cut all my hair off. I bought clippers and Bekki essentially shaved my entire head to 1". I plan on trimming it some more after I see it dry. I want to eliminate the need for hair straightening, or any kind of maintenance. I was happy with how it looks, but the more I look at it, the more it seems a bit too long still, as I get a douche vibe from my reflection, but I always hate my reflection.

We then went to see Edge of Tomorrow, which is Groundhog Day In Space! It was a good movie, great science fiction, and a good Tom Cruise movie.

It's late now, and I have a bit of a headache and I'm real sleepy, so I think I'm gonna wrap it up.

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