Excessive

I don't know how to describe what I'm feeling, and I've tried to think of ways to describe it but I can't.

I feel restless and chaotic. I have this vague feeling like I want to experience something nostaligc... I want to play a grindy RPG for a console, like Dragon Warrior or Final Fantasy. I want to program and accomplish personal goals with personal projects. I feel so restless, and my mind is going os fast that I can't calm down, can't sit down without wanting to scream.

I hate these weekends. Weekends when I can't relax, can't find peace.

All I want is that feeling of being lost in another world, reading a book or playing a game, but for hours, without thought to anything else.

I just don't feel okay. No relaxation, no peace.

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