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I'm having seriously one of the worst days ever. Besides the fact that my loyal kittens have kept me company and attempted to comfort me all day, I'm laying around, yelling at the walls, shaking and hitting my head and screaming. I can't play games... I get frustrated and yell curse words at the TV before slamming down the controller and shutting off the game without saving. I can't eat because... well I'm not hungry; I can't rest because my back hurts and my mind has melted. I layed in bed floating in and out of conciousness listening to the Final Fantasy X soundtrack, having the craziest, disturbing dreams / daydreams. I feel sick to my stomach, I feel sick to my head. I feel helpless and worst of all I feel hateful. I want to go visit a few select people in person with a chainsaw. I want to cut out vocal chords, and cut off heads.. grr. Is it legal to make threats like that? meh...

I'm just so pissed off and angry at everything... people who pretend to be friends. People who trick you.. people who don't even give you a chance. For some reason it's stuck in my head; I just don't get why people have to be so... blaaaah.

I tried to make a doctors appointment this morning, because of how serious my degredation is now, but they were closed. I have to call tomorrow morning or I think I'm going to have to go to the hospital.

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