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Why is it that whenever I go to bed now, I lay awake and think horrible things that make me cry and unsleepy? Why is it that for the last few days, I've laid in the dark and thought about what it was like to be alone in that hospital? or how it felt to have my heart ripped out. or the looks on faces, the sounds in the voices...

I almost died tonight.. something went wrong when I took my pills, since I hadn't taken them for three days or so. I became violently ill, my skin felt like it was on fire but I was running a cold sweat, I couldn't breath, I couldn't see.. I blacked out, I was dizzy.. and was shaking more than I've ever shook before.

I called my Mom three times because I was so scared.. it passed and now I have an unbearably large stomache ache.

I want to sleep. I want to be asleep right now.. why the fuck can't I sleep?

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