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I'm going to start with the recolection of watching the great movie Elf. Yes, that's right, GREAT. I knew I was going to enjoy it right off the bat, before I even watched the movie... before I even downloaded it... I suppose that's why I decided to download it in the first place. Probably the biggest reason why I did decide to download it was because I kept seeing the commericals on TV because Christmas is getting closer, and the americans are, for some reason, pushing Christmas earlier than ever this year (it's not even their thanksgiving yet.. fucking weirdos), but anyway, I kept seeing commercials for it and I kept giggling and yelling WILL FERREL! Naturally, anything I giggle at, I want in my home, so after being mindlessly brainwashed by commercials, I went to the gosh darn computer and downloaded the movie. I enjoy, or have enjoyed rather, anything Will Ferrel has been in or been involved with (his writing credits in Night at the Roxbury and Anchorman) and so I new that I would at least eeennjoy the movie, if not love it, so I went into the movie ready to be amused. Thankfully the movie not only amused me, but it managed to turn my bad mood into a good mood, laughing at so many jokes, and a lot of physical comedy, something Will is genius with. It has it's share of 'corny, but not too corny' moments, hilarious jokes, lots of 'smile parts' and fun things... references to my childhood and so on. Basically, it was well acted (except for the kid... I didn't particularly care for his acting, not that it wasn't good.. I just didn't like the guy).. and it was a very nice, magical movie, worth enjoying, especially around this time of the year.

As far as the story of the movie is concerned, it's actually pretty neat because while I was watching it, I remember thinking to myself how good of a childrens story it makes, and yet how funny it is to adults (or young adults for you youngins). That's something that I would think would be hard to accomplish but they do a great job with it. The jokes are funny to everyone, but even funnier if you really get them (like putting a ton of whiskey into coffee and a giant elf getting drunk.. haha.. oh man.) If you don't really know what the movie is about, it's basically about a human who was raised as an elf because it ended up in the north pole. Once the human, whom was raised as an elf, grew up, the truth came out that he wasn't actually an elf, and that his real parents were somewhere in a magical city called New York, and in order to feel fulfilled, he should really go and learn about himself and his family.. and so the story begins. It follows the elf (Ferrel) to New York and the adventures he meets as he interacts with other New Yorkers, thinking that he's a real elf and that everyone believes in Santa and magical christmas spirit. It's an hilarious movie, I highly recommend it for your christmas celebrations.

Here is a neat question for all my american readers. PLEASE, answer. Leave a comment and answer this fucking question. How do you reply to Thank You. Seriously. What is the appropriate response to the statement 'Thank You'? I want to know what American children are taught, because it sure as hell isn't Your Welcome. At work, I call about 200 businesses in a day.. maybe more. I'm talking to people at businesses, not homes, so I'm talking to people intelligent and well enough educated to at least hold a job somewhere other than McDonalds. Anyway, I pretty much say the same damn introduction each and every call I make, which you'd think gets boring, but no, it becomes so mindless that I can do it without thinking, which is a good thing, because time goes by faster if I just zone out... ahem, back to the point. Each time, I eventually get to the point where I ask to speak to a specific person (usually speaking to a receptionist, or sometimes shipping clerk or a random worker), and I say, could I please speak to blah blah blah, the person responds, yep, just a second, I say, Thank you. and what would you expect to be the response. hmmm.. good question. As far as I've ever known, the response to Thank You, has always been Your Welcome... if out of reflex if nothing else... what 199 out of 200 people say to me, when I say thank you.. is: "uh huh". or "mmhmm" or "mm huh" etc. WHAT THE FUCK!? Jesus christ.. such fuckign idiots. What the hell is the deal with that? uh HUH!? HOW ABOUT YOUR WELCOME YOU RETARD. It just bugs me because I hear it so often; it makes them sound so stupid and... american. bah, I guess it suits them :P It just strikes me as odd that such a large group of people have never been exposed to the response of Your Welcome. It's like the words Thank You are foriegn to them and they don't know what to do, so they make instinctive responses of 'uuuhhhh *drools*' and so on. What the hell people... So are americans taught how to respond to Thank You? and they choose to ignore it? Or are they just naturally dumb? okay.. I'm done.

I have started to get heavily into Disgaea again... perhaps unhealthily.. because that's a word now. Basically I spend as many waking hours playing, but somehow fitting Chrono Trigger and Mario into the mix, just to keep it at least a bit of a balance diet. So after having a save file of 150 hours, you're probably (not) wondering what else do I have left to do for (insert false idol here) sake! Well, you see, you can start the game over, but keep your levels and items! (a new game plus if you will) and do it aaaalll over again, but differently. As well, you can keep going into the Item World, and making your items more powerful and powerful and keep challenging yourself to stronger and stronger enemies. The thing about this game is that it really is never ending... there will always be something stronger to challenge yourself with.. always something stronger to keep fighting for. You can always make your weapons a few levels stronger, to finally kill that level 4000 enemy. I guess that's what's kept me playing for so long... just the notion that it's never ending and has an endless amount of possibilites and things to do... the list is just so long of things I want to do and accomplish, I always having something to work towards, and I always feel like I could go just a biiiit further, and it just keeps repeating itself. I mean.. I'm attempting to get all my characters above level 300.. I've got about 5 above it and about 10 more to go, but it's so fun to set goals and try to achieve them. Once I've got all the characters on a pretty decent level, I'm going to try to enter some really tough weapons and get them to be even tougher, but it's going to be a real challenge to do so, because the enemies in the weapons start at around level 400, so it'll be a refreshing situation: the enemies might actually be able to kill me! Something that doesn't happen very often..

I can really see my save game reaching 200 hours soon and I do not see it ending anytime in the near future. I'm sure years from now I'll still be playing the same freakin' save game. It feels great to have such accomplishments and things to show for it. My save game is up to 163 hours and rising. Right now Laharl and Tifa are my highest leveled characters, but Laharl and Payne are my two strongest, both being capable of dealing around 15,000 damage or more, per turn. Also, I finally coaxed Emily into starting a game, and she played for hours straight and really enjoyed it, which makes me feel amazing, because I know I have a lot that I can contribute as far as battle strategy, character planning and overall playing goes, and I can't wait to share it, if she is so willing to accept such advice, maybe she's not. I wouldn't blame her for wanting to experience the game jordan free, as I did (in a sense) and perhaps taking some more hints and advice the second time through. Either way, it's great to see her enjoying something I've got so much enjoyment out of, it really makes me smile.

On a more negative note (I've got to balance it out kids) I've been pretty consistently pissed off, depressed and sad lately, at a lot of things around me. I very often don't feel happy, or very comfortable. I feel unliked, and unwanted. I feel very... I dunno.. is 'blah' an emotion? I feel very... rejected and annoyed, and thought of as nothing more than an annoyance. I just sometimes want to disappear and be alone in a hole somewhere. Today I just layed in the bottom of the bathtub as the shower was on and put my head on my bath pillow and laid under the water as it hit me and I laid there crying for a good fifteen minutes, and I just felt so alone and helpless.. No one knows how to help me, and I guess I just feel a lot of the time, no one wants to the time to learn how to help me. I guess that's my own problem though, because it's not something you can go through life expecting from people. Many a time has my Mom reminded me that I've got to learn how to live my life alone before I could ever survive with a partner. It's true that I have to be able to be happy with myself, it's just so hard sometimes, and I just wouldn't mind support.. but no one understands me; only Marle.

I suppose I'll leave the night on a good note, as it's how I feel right now... I'm listening to the Garden State soundtrack, kind of feeling like crying, but also feeling pretty comfortable and relaxed on my hardwood floor, using my laptop, with the light of a lamp that's been near me since birth, surrounded by cats that love me more than life itself. Life is good I suppose... I guess I just need to keep my eyes wide open. Farewell to you my friends, keep in touch.

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