Excessive

I'm quite the angry fellow lately... I've found myself getting angry, frustrated, annoyed and violent a lot easier lately, and I'm not really sure why. I know I hold a lot of things in, and try to ignore it all by doing mindless chores all day, but sometimes it just doesn't work and I just have to scream obsenities. It's been coming out while playing games lately... I find myself getting really angry when I don't do well, and that's something that I've never really had a problem with when playing games (except a few)... I never really mind when I lose normally, but lately I just want to smash the tv, throw the controller, turn it off and then kill everyone. Way to go!

I had heated up left over roast beef tonight for supper and I really didn't enjoy any of it. I didn't have lunch today for whatever reason, so I had supper earlier than I normally do (I normally have supper at 6:30, and tonight I had it at 5:15) and I didn't enjoy any of it. I didn't enjoy preparing it, eating it, or digesting it. The microwave dried out the beef, the potatoes were weird, the veggies were soggy, I had no more banana bread... overall one of the worst suppers in forever. I got a headache right after supper as well, and I still have it, so that kinda fucked up the whole relaxing idea.

For some reason my torrents are all fucked up... I'm not sure if it's Azureus (probably not) or Rogers (probably) but the torrent speeds have stopped (I'm getting about 0.01kb/sec down and 1kb/sec up) but normal internet runs fine. Fuck you Rogers, fuck you in your greedy asses. It's happened before, and it's gone back to normal, so hopefully something is just wrong and it'll get fixed and things will be back to normal in a day or two.

Although today was better than yesterday, especially since I felt quite a bit happier, something about it was still pretty shitty overall. I dunno... I feel so upset about everything, and feel quite blah in general... I hope it passes.

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